holiday baby~

ah, finally exam has ended dragging along sem 1.
i knew that I've made A LOT of mistakes. and yes it is A LOT!!
and i pretty much blow it.

pretty much meaning i HAVE to score in sem 2 which i am assuming it is WAYYY harder.
but first! Holiday baby~

enjoying the holiday u ask?
hmm, i will!!

Selamat Hari Raya

nuff said

yo yo yo~~
hahaa^^
who goes there?
YOU! yeah! you!!
what are you doing?
oh?
reading my blog is it?
okay, carry on ^^


wee~ thank you matric for giving me the best present ever~ HOLIDAY!!! HAHAHA!!
exams wasn't hard at all, just that when u have too much of positive thinking
u always put yourself into insecure mode which brings you many mistakes to be made =.=
so far i still don't have plan for the holidays..
so i think i just have to study until any events come along.


XO!! EVA!! i wanna meet you!!
I WANNA PLAY CHESS!! but too bad no chess tourney so far... T__T

I look back on the footprint I’ve left again and again
Thinking “Where am I now?”
I scooped up the dead leaves in my arms
And drew my dreams on the autumn window with my numb fingertips

I have wings but I can’t fly
I’m afraid of being alone, it’s too painful
We’re leaving behind those days of cuddling in the gentle sun
And walking on to our lonely dreams

Goodbye isn’t a sad word
It’s a yell that connects us to our respective dreams
I’ll hold the days we spent together in my heart
And take off alone to my next sky

Why do we get impatient for an answer
And search for ourselves in darkness so deep that we get lost in it?
When we have the tears and straightforward smiles
Of just loving someone, right here?

When it comes to our real selves, we get off track, get confused
And think it’s made up by other people’s words
We’ll take hold of our natural weakness and the strength to face it
And start running to tomorrow for the first time

Maybe every time we say goodbye to someone
We can change, we can become stronger
Even if we take off to different skies
This love won’t stop, it still remains in my heart

Ever since I realised there’s no such thing as eternity
The day we laughed together, and the day we sang together
Have become strongly, deeply carved into my heart
That’s why you, that’s why we
Aren’t anybody else, can’t be beaten by anyone
We raised our voices and promised that we’d live our lives our way
Each of us chose our own path

Goodbye isn’t a sad word
It’s a yell that connects us to our respective dreams
Until we meet again someday
I won’t forget this pride, my friend, into the sky

We have a word that we share
It’s a yell that connects our voices, one heart to another
I’ll hold the days we spent together in my heart
And take off alone to my next sky

As you can see(probably), college is taking the TOLL on me..

Tutorials are hectic.. its like pages of questions to be done with increasing difficulty..

Practical is ok la.. but only done Physics so far.. so nothing much..

Lectures are fun though... there's one sub-chapter in Physics which makes me hate Physics.. Vectors(forces in equilibrium)..

I never concentrated about this in form 4.. and now, I'm paying for it!

This should give you a hint


Arranged a 'meeting' with Mr Loke.. for him to teach me that part again... hope it will be clear then..

College is hectic, stressful, pressurising... but nevertheless.. its fun!
Dashini can't park.. haha.. We went out to Jusco then when we came back... she couldnt park her car.. she was like shifting her gear when we stopped.. "I dunno how to do la".. then I offered to help, and before she got out, she turned on the Hazard lights.. just to park! Big emergency i tell you.. hahaha...

Bio we're learning the simpletons..

Chemistry, I du

I come back tired, but I hold my sleep.. if I sleep, I wont feel drowsy at night..

Then around 10,
drowsiness kicks in.. and 'snore'..

In retrospect I really wasted the 5 months of holidays..

Plus no time for GAMES! also..

The subject I enjoy the most is undoubtedly Biology.. Its fun, fast-paced, entertaining and educational..

When I couldnt solve the Physics.. I hated myself so much.. I just wanted to drop college.. haha..


Thx for tuning in..

Another life of a TARC-ian

Hey there~

Kamarul's here ^^

So, how was everyones doing?

fine? no?

however you feel is important cause it affect your ways life and thinking.

Same apply for myself.

I'm starting to like college life and starting to adapt the lifestyle here.

It has been two weeks and I have completed my first week of a levels
YAY~ *clap*

Many have changed..i mean myself
for these two weeks

I've become even more diciplined
I slept at 11p.m because i need to wake up early.
I woke up at 4a.m everyday just to study until 6a.m.
Bath.
Breakfast at 7
then go college at 7.30 (class starts at 8)
after college go bak home changed and go back to colleges' gym.
dinner around 8.30p.m
and do some revision or maybe tutorial until 10.30
bath & sleep.

Seriously, in my hometown i was a very lazy boy that reluctant to do most things.
I procrastinate a lot
but here, even online seems boring.
So...books here i come~


A levels really are intensive.
my classes usually ends at 6 while the earliest is at 4a.m that is on monday.
we have all five subject
General Paper, Physics, Math, Biology and Chemistry.
while there are subjects that are made compulsory for us to pass by the Malaysian Goverment is Malaysian Studies and Pendidikan Islam/Moral.
Though it is considered Maximum to take 4 subjects for A levels in science, we have five. Which also means we can drop any subject that we don't want/need.

Maybe i'm going to drop physics by the end of this sem

It Been A Long Time I didn't Update The Blog =X



Hahaha.. I Guess I Got Nothing To Share About It..










Mervin

One step forward

Now i just realized how comfy my bed is.

:(((((

Started staying in KL already.

have to restart everything.

I just made friends with the my new housemates who is also the house leader.

We talked for some time and she asked me that do I have any friends here nearby and i told them i don’t.

She then asked me whether or not want to meet her friend.
so this is how the conversation went roughly.

Rain :”hey, do you have any friend/s nearby?”

Me :”Not that I recalled”

Rain :”Wanna meet my friend?”

Me :”huh? Why?”

Rain :”Just meet~”

Me :”Anything.”

Rain :”ok ^^”

*Rain start calling her friend..and asked whether she’s busy or not. Fortunately her friend is busy…but unfortunately for me, she set for us to meet on Tuesday. PAISEH aaa =.=.

Living alone independently is quite tiring but I love the feeling of washing my own cloths,sweeping the floor and do everything without anyone else to tell me :)

I don’t know why but usually in my own house when asked to do these things I just don’t want to and very reluctant to do it. But living here maybe it already be my responsibility to do it myself. But the weird thing is I never enjoyed doing these before while i’m doing it happily now. Maybe it’s the responsibility stuff again or maybe I just don't like being told what to do.

Though everything i said was sounded i like this place. There are certain parts that I might take time to get use to.

For example,

Sleeping! yes…this is the HARDEST part.. It’s like damn hot in here… I got a big fan turning on full speed but it still hot and I felt like a Barbequed human…

1st attempt, Sleep with cover.

2nd attempt, sleep without cover

3rd attempt, turn fan to full speed

4th attempt, take off shirt

5th attempt, go bath…then wipe dry and sleep

yeah..it took me 2 freakin’ hour just to get myself to sleep…

I miss my bed.

then..

I have to get myself as quiet as possible.. because all my housemates seems to be sooo damn quiet.. well, although it just 3 of them back and 2 of them come back at 9-11p.m but still…

I WANT TO BUY A HEADPHONE!! I want to sing :(

Oh ya, thank you Jackson for giving me the link of the website.. I love it! Will treat you lunch next time we meet =)

Ok, I should go and prepare for my orientation later.

College starts today.

YAY~

Happy Mothers Day

You told me how little you've done for us
How disappointing you are to me
How you can't make the best of herself for us
How you ruined my life

But it's just because you care.

But you forgotten...
How much you suffer in pain giving birth to me
How much you stay up late when i'm sick
How much you spend your time to listen to me when i'm having problems
How much you care about me when i'm hurt
How much you gave me support when i'm down
How much you encouraged me when i'm lack of confident.
How much you worked so hard to send me to school, gaining knowledge
How much you taught me
How much you lied just not to make me cry
How much you tried you best just for me
But what you want from me is a smile.



Mom, you sacrificed so many just for me.
A child of yours like myself
are grateful to have a mother like you.
What you gave to me,
It is impossible to repay you


Thank you mom for loving me.
Thank you for giving birth to me.
Thank you for supporting me.
Thank you for everything
and finally..
Thank you for being my mother.
I love you mom

My Mother

It was you who told me with your teary voice
looking away

That if you couldn’t lie anymore
Living on would not be possible

Since you wanted to be loved
You kept on laughing
Through any hardship

Sadness is something
I could endure
If I were alone

Kindness is so
Cruel, Isn’t it?

Even your heart
Becomes confused

I want to be together forever but
Things I dont like about you seem to
Increase by each passing day

Were like-minded, arent we?
I feel like I understand

I have someone I can love now
If that day were ever to come
I wonder if I could change

Happiness is
Although it doesnt
Shine like magic

Isn’t hatred
Just a slight misunderstanding?
Please dont cry

Mere fate
Is something you can change
Crying into the night as I ran from the house

And in that secluded park bench
I waited for you to come pick me up

Sadness is a thing
If snuggled together,
A thing of great warmth

Kindness is
If its close to you
Its taken advantage of

Hey
Im happy
Probably because

I had you
With me

formspring.me

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/symphonies

Cher.ry

Romanization
te no hira de furueta
sore ga chiisa na yuuki ni natteitan da
emoji wa nigate datta
dakedo kimi kara dattara waku waku shichau

henji wa sugu ni shicha dame datte
dareka ni kiita koto aru kedo
kakehiki nante dekinai no
...suki na no yo ah ah ah ah

*koi shichattan da tabun kidzuitenai deshou?
hoshi no yoru negai komete CHE.R.RY
~yubisaki de okuru kimi he no message

sakura ga saiteiru
kono heya kara mieteru keshiki wa zenbu
ima kimi ga kanjita
sekai to juubyou torikaete morau yori

honno ichigyou demo kamawanain da
kimi kara no kotoba ga hoshiin da
uso de mo shinjitsudzukerareru no
...suki dakara ah ah ah ah

*repeat

amaku naru kajitsu ga ii no
nani ge nai kaiwa kara sodatetai
ah ah ah ah

koi no hajimari mune ga kyun to semaku naru
itsu made mo matteru kara
haru no tsumetai yokaze ni azukete message

*repeat

CHER.R.Y

my palm trembled
and that was turning into a small courage
I’d always disliked emoji*, but I got excited if they were from you

it’s no good if I reply too soon
I heard that from someone before, but
I can’t do these strategy things
…I like you

**I’ve fallen in love
probably, you don’t realize it, right?
putting a wish into the starry night, CHE.R.RY
with my fingertips, I send a message toward you

the sakura are blossoming
the entire scenery that can be viewed from this room
now, I’d rather exchange it for the world you felt for ten seconds

I don’t mind even if it’s just one line
I want words from you
I can even keep on believing lies
…because I like you

**repeat

the fruit that grow sweet are good
I want to grow them from casual conversation

the start of love
my heart contracts with a clench
no matter how long, I’ll be waiting
the message I entrust to the cold night wind of spring

**repeat

aimless

being non-employed really not a fun thing.
kinda bored and i really feel useless and feel shame for being non-productive.

=\




on the other hand,
we work.
i feel bored jz by sitting there waiting for customer.
or...mayb i should find other work.
but i don't think that's a good idea since i'm going to start my college life soon.
argh! life aren't just consistent enough.

Alone At Kuala Pilah

Alone.. Lonely....
After Tomorrow I Will Lonely And Bored In Kuala Pilah,But I Need To Acpt It..
Well.. Now Is My Time To Study,Because No More Going Out At Night.. Good For Me Too ^^


Guys: I hope you all won't 4get me =)

Alone At Kuala Pilah

Love movie make me sick..
...The Ending always the same one... Not the boy be with the girl larh,bla bla bla..
and so ON!!

CRAP... Why don't just say I LOVE YOU,Easy.. Do those movie to lie people,teach people how to in love?....






WHAT THE HELL I TALKING ABOUT..(Crazy)

UB with frenz

After Sport Day And PRS camp

I HURT MY BACK..
AND IT WAS VERY PAIN~

After Sport Day And PRS camp

One word that always in my brain..
PATIENCE












Mr.Mervin..

Bursting with laughters~
that's what happened to my friend and I during the Seremban Parade Open
kinda love the intensity of a tournament although the atmosphere usually making me nervous and excited at the same time..
My hands keep on shivering right after each won though...
wonder why..maybe i really have high level of thyroxine..hope not to get goitre though
Pui! Pui! *step

hmm...what's next?
there's SPM result to be taken...
omg! SPM result...this would really be scary moment in life
yeah..3 months are really flowing fast and i am still in the middle of nowhere
well..at least i'm making progress with my car and JPJ test 2moro!!
horrraayy...wish me luck everyone! It'll be a cemetary drive
hahahhaa!! hope not to give my marker a heart attack and high blood pressure!
pray to god i'll pass =)

and...there's reunion I have to attend to... woah~
20th to KL..and CHESS TOURNEY on the next day!! wahahahha
i went to 4 chess tourney for these 3 months already and I'm satisfy with each result ^^
Hope this Stonemaster Chess tourney will be an easy one for me =)

hmm..there's Penang...shit!
i haven't found a place for me to stay in Penang...
DEATH...

march is herE~

SUNDAY^ It's SUNDAY!!

gosh, Seremban Parade Open is on sunday..
My preparation?
NOTHING!!
damn, i'm good..

erm...this time it could be even more interesting as we might have a possibility to up against my own fren and teacher !
wahaha...
Sir Jun Jie, Yee JinQ , Zain, Me, Nayeem, Gan..Waiting for you all
too bad alexson can't join this time though

on second thought

sighs... i thought this would never be an issue already
but i was wrong.

now it coming back to haunt me again...

Pharmacy or Tourism management?

both have their pro and cons and but to think i've already made up my mind

on pharmacy but it struck me back yesterday to rethink the plans.

urrghh...i hate being indecisive

it seems that tourism really seems interesting.

Oh god I need help..

BLOG..!!!
I'M BACK (Mr.Mervin)

YUP~ This year life is kinda of happy,because last year in PI CHUNG already..
I'm kinda a little bit sad,because got many thing happen before new year...
But the good news is...
I change my life already!
NO MORE EMO
NO MORE WEARING MASK
NO MORE LONELY
NO MORE NEGATIVE THINKING

Today was a sleepless night...
I MISS YOU ALL GUYS
I NEED YOU ALL GUYS
I WANT YOU ALL GUYS
I LOVE YOU ALL GUYS
I MISS YOU ALL GUYS
(Last year from5)

Working at my dad pharmacy was ok
tiring but fun when some of my dad's friend came..
some of the old folks like to lepak there and have a chat
it's just like coffee shop or some food stall jz that here we sell drugs.
haha...there's sooo much to know from them, they talk about their past lives( it kinda boring when they started to compare with current era), about politics , about movies and yes, they gossip as well




On the other hand...
after work, my life at home was quite unproductive. I jz sitting infront of my laptop watching some movies.
Only jog when there's someone to accompany...feel kinda lazy to jog alone =\
CNY is coming and
Happy Chinese New Year to ALL my chinese friends
Happy Valentine's to Those who are celebrating?
Happy birthday to Valentine's baby especially Ms. Lee Nian Mei!!!!

roger and out

ggeeee~~ i love penang so much
whenever i went Penang i feel like i'm in paradise~
why?
well..there's foods!
yes foods. The foods are deliciousss...mmm mmm
almost makes me drool everytime i think bout it =P

well..there's chess!~
why chess? well..coz usually i went there for tournament!!
haha..yeah how pathetic but what to do?
I LOVE CHESS!!
CHESS IS MY DRUGS!
well..not THAT obsessed though

and there's beach
well..penang is an island rite?

and there's..ermm...
books! mall!
lol...
and and and...
foods!!
eh..i mentioned foods. >.<

well..it's just that i love Penang..yeah..
i guess u all get the idea d eh?

Reincarnated

HEy BLOG!!
I'm Back!!
It's been a while since the king of this blog came
well..been quite busy with life recently
with works,license lecture and practical,chess and all
but i had soo much fun
Going to penang on 29th of december and i have been anticipating for it!!!!
This time i am going to bring my camera and my laptop! I DONT CARE!!
hmm...i should take more picture this time..
ALEXSON!!
fast fast out PLKN!!
Siow Ping!!
YOU TOO!!!
EVA!!
fast fast come back Malaysia!!
then we all come out yamcha!

Steven HCY..cHiNEse NEw year u got come back from singapore ma?
haha...i wanna go ur house weh!! wahahaha!!


ALL HAIL THE KING!