didnt feel quite myself recently
didnt feel like playing chess
didnt feel like going online
didnt feel like laughing
didnt feel like singing
didnt feel to do anything i always love to do

i didnt know what happen
i keep on complaining for anything
even the smallest among them
i feel like locking myself in my room
i feel like hitting myself in the face
i just want to hurt myself
and i didnt know why

there is something wrong with me
yes there are
but i didnt sure what is it


i feel like destroying everything related to me
feel like deleting this blog,msn,change my number and all those stuff
i dont know what is the reason but i really do
hopefully i regain my self-control back