~Wander within repetition~

2011-08-14T14:12:00.000-07:00

Bismillahirahmanirrahim...

Imsak Sebelum Adzan Shubuh

Pada saat menelang shubuh di waktu sahur pada bulan Ramadhan, kita biasanya mendengar ada peringtan imsak yang didengungkan, baik lewat corong masjid-masjid, radio, maupun televisi. Kebiasaan tersebut sudah begitu membudaya di masyarakat kita. Bahkan seakan-akan sudah merupakan syari’at bahwa kita tidak boleh makan dan minum setelah peringatan imsak dikumandangkan. Namun betulkah hal itu?

Untuk mengetahui lebih lanjut mengenai hal itu, dibawah ini kami nukilkan beberapa fatwa para Ulama tentang Imsak. Apakah benar ia merupakan syariat dalam agama ini ataukah bukan. (Red)

FATWA SYAIKH MUHAMMAD NASHIRUDDIN AL ALBANI TENTANG DIPERBOLEHKANNYA MAKAN DAN MINUM HINGGA ADZAN SHUBUH

“Jika salah seorang di antara kamu mendengar adzan sedangkan ia masih memegang piring (makan) maka janganlah ia meletakkannya sehingga ia menyelesaikan hajatnya (makannya).” (Hadits riwayat Imam Ahmad, Abu Dawud, Hakim dan dishahihkan olehnya dan oleh Adz Dzahabi)

Hadits ini dikeluarkan oleh Abu Dawud 1/549, Ibnu Jarir dalam At Tafsir 3/526/3015, Abu Muhammad Al Jauhari dalam Al Fawa’id Al Muntaqah 1/2, Hakim 1/426, Baihaqi 4/218, Ahmad 2/423 dan 510. Diriwayatkan dari beberapa jalan dari Hammad bin Salamah dari Muhammad bin ‘Amr dari Abu Salamah dari Abu Hurairah ia berkata: “Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam bersabda … .” Kemudian ia (Abu Hurairah) menyebutkan hadits di atas.

Hakim berkata : “Hadits ini shahih berdasarkan syarat Muslim.” Pernyataan ini disepakati oleh Dzahabi. Padahal dalam hadits ini ada (sanad) yang perlu dikoreksi. Karena Muhammad bin ‘Amr hanya dipakai oleh Imam Muslim jika ia bersamaan dengan yang lain (dengan hadits shahih yang lain yang semakna, pent.) maka yang benar hadits ini HASAN.

Ya, memang Ibnu ‘Amr tidak bersendirian karena Hammad bin Salamah juga berkata: “Diriwayatkan dari Amar bin Abi Amar dari Abu Hurairah dari Nabi Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam seperti itu, hanya ada tambahan: "Dan dulu muadzin mengumandangkan adzan jika telah terbit fajar." (Hadits riwayat Imam Ahmad 2/510, Ibnu Jarir, dan Al Baihaqi)

Aku (Syaikh Al Albani) berkata: “Isnad hadits ini shahih berdasarkan syarat Muslim. Di samping itu hadits ini mempunyai syawahid (hadits-hadits lain yang memperkuat) yaitu:

(1) Hadits mursal yang diriwayatkan oleh Hammad juga tetapi dari jalan Yunus dari Hasan dari Nabi Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam, kemudian menyebutkan hadits tersebut di atas. (Dikeluarkan oleh Ahmad 2/423 dengan disertai riwayat yang pertama)
(2) Hadits maushul yang diriwayatkan dari Al Husain bin Waqid dari Abu Umamah ia berkata: Pada waktu iqamat dikumandangkan, Umar masih memegang gelas. Ia (Umar) bertanya : “Apakah saya masih boleh minum, ya Rasulullah?” Beliau menjawab : “Ya (boleh).” Kemudian Umar minum. (Hadits riwayat Ibnu Jarir 3/527/3017 dengan dua sanad darinya). Isnad hadits ini hasan.
(3) Hadits yang diriwayatkan dari Ibnu Lahi’ah dari Abu Zubair ia berkata: Aku bertanya kepada Jabir tentang seseorang yang bermaksud puasa sedangkan ia masih memegang gelas untuk minum kemudian mendengar adzan. Jabir menjawab : Kami pernah mengatakan hal seperti itu kepada Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam dan beliau bersabda : “Hendaklah ia minum.” (Dikeluarkan oleh Ahmad 3/348, beliau berkata : Telah meriwayatkan pada kami Musa, ia berkata : Telah meriwayatkan pada kami Ibnu Lahi’ah).
Aku (Syaikh Al Albani) berkata: Isnad ini tidak mengapa (dapat dipakai) jika untuk penguat (menguatkan hadits yang lain, pent.). Al Walid bin Muslim juga meriwayatkannya dari Ibnu Lahi’ah. (Dikeluarkan oleh Abu Al Husain Al Kilabi dalam Nuskhah Abu Al Abas Thahir bin Muhammad).
Perawi-perawinya tsiqat (terpercaya), perawi-perawi Imam Muslim kecuali Ibnu Lahi’ah karena jelek hapalannya. Al Haitsami berkata dalam Al Majma’ (3/153) : “Diriwayatkan oleh Ahmad dan isnadnya hasan.”
(4) Hadits yang dikeluarkan oleh Ishaq dari Abdullah bin Mu’aqal dari Bilal, ia berkata: “Aku pernah mendatangi Nabi Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam untuk adzan shalat shubuh padahal beliau akan berpuasa. Kemudian beliau meminta gelas untuk minum. Setelah itu beliau mengajakku untuk minum dan kami keluar untuk shalat.” (Dikeluarkan oleh Ibnu Jarir 3018 dan 3019, Ahmad 6/12, dan perawi-perawinya tsiqat, perawi-perawi Bukhari Muslim). Seandainya tidak ada Ibnu Lahi’ah yaitu As Syabi’i [dia bercampur hapalannya serta suka melakukan tadlis] akan tetapi hadits ini menjadi kuat dengan adanya riwayat Ja’far bin Barqan dari Syadad budak ‘Ayadh bin ‘Amir dari Bilal, haditsnya sama dengan yang di atas. (Dikeluarkan oleh Imam Ahmad 6/13)
(5) Muthi’ bin Rasyid meriwayatkan : Telah menceritakan pada kami Taubah Al ‘Ambari bahwa dia mendengar Anas bin Malik berkata : Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam bersabda (yang artinya): Lihatlah siapa yang berada di masjid, panggilah dia! Kemudian aku masuk masjid, disana aku dapati Abu Bakar dan Umar. Kemudian aku memanggil mereka lalu aku bawakan suatu makanan dan aku letakkan di depan beliau. Kemudian beliau makan bersama mereka, setelah itu mereka keluar. Kemudian Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam shalat bersama mereka, shalat shubuh. (Dikeluarkan oleh Al Bazzar nomor 993 dalam Kasyful Astar dan ia berkata : “Kami tidak mengetahui Taubah menyandarkan kepada Anas kecuali hadits ini dan satu hadits yang lain dan tidak meriwayatkan dua hadits itu darinya (Anas) kecuali Muthi’)

Al Hafidh Ibnu Hajar berkata dalam Az Zawaid halaman 106 : “Isnad hadits ini hasan.”
Aku (Syaikh Al Albani) berkata : Imam Al Haitsami berkata seperti itu juga (seperti perkataan Al Hafidh Ibnu Hajar, pent.) dalam Al Majma’ 3/152.
(6) Qais bin Rabi’ meriwayatkan dari Zuhair bin Abi Tsabit Al A’ma dari Tamim bin ‘Ayyadl dari Ibnu Umar ia berkata : “‘Alqamah bin Alatsah pernah bersama Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam kemudian datanglah Bilal untuk mengumandangkan adzan. Kemudian Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam bersabda : “Tunggu sebentar wahai Bilal! ‘Alqamah sedang makan sahur.” (Dikeluarkan oleh At Thayalisi nomor 885 dan At Thabrani dalam Al Kabir sebagaimana dalam Al Majma’ 3/153 dan ia berkata : “Qais bin Rabi’ dianggap tsiqah oleh Syu’bah dan Sufyan Ats Tsauri padahal padanya (Qais) ada pembicaraan (masih diragukan tentang dia)).
Aku (Syaikh Al Albani) berkata: Haditsnya (Qais) hasan jika ada syawahid-nya karena ia (Qais) sendiri shaduq (jujur) hanya yang dikhawatirkan adalah jeleknya hapalan dia maka apabila ia meriwayatkan hadits yang sesuai dengan perawi-perawi tsiqat lainnya, haditsnya dapat dipakai.

Adapun dalil-dalil dari atsar (perbuatan shahabat, pent.) yang membahas tentang hal itu adalah apa yang diriwayatkan oleh Syuhaib bin Gharqadah Al Bariqi dari Hibban bin Harits ia berkata : “Kami pernah makan sahur bersama Ali bin Abi Thalib radliyallahu ‘anhu maka tatkala kami telah selesai makan sahur, ia (Ali) menyuruh muadzin untuk iqamat.” (Dikeluarkan oleh At Thahawi dalam Syarah Al Ma’ani 1/106 dan Al Mulhis dalam Al Fawaid Al Munthaqah 8/11/1)

Perawi-perawinya tsiqat kecuali Hibban, Ibnu Abi Hatim 1/2/269 membawakan riwayat ini dan ia tidak menyebutkan jarh dan ta’dil-nya sedangkan Ibnu Hibban menulisnya dalam Ats Tsiqat.

Diterjemahkan dari Silsilah Al Ahadits Ash Shahihah hadits nomor 1394,
Syaikh Nashiruddin Al Albani
BANTAHAN SYAIH AL ALBANI TERHADAP PENDAPAT SAYYID SABIQ

Sayyid Sabiq mengatakan: ” … Maka apabila telah terbit fajar sedangkan di mulutnya masih ada sesuatu makanan, wajib baginya untuk membuangnya (memuntahkannya).”

Bantahan Syaikh Al Albani:
Aku (Syaikh Al Albani) berkata: Perkataan ini merupakan taqlid (pada) kitab-kitab fiqih. Padahal pendapat tersebut tidak didasari oleh satu dalil pun dari hadits Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam. Bahkan yang benar pendapat tersebut menyelisihi sabda beliau (yang artinya): “Apabila salah seorang di antara kamu mendengar adzan sedangkan tempat makan (piring) masih berada di tangannya, janganlah dia meletakkannya sampai ia menyelesaikan hajatnya (makannya).” (Dikeluarkan oleh Ahmad, Abu Daud, Hakim, dan dishahihkan olehnya dan oleh Adz Dzahabi).

Dikeluarkan juga oleh Ibnu Hazm dengan tambahan : Amar (Ibnu Abi Amar) berkata : “Mereka dahulu mengumandangkan adzan tatkala terbit fajar.”

Ahmad (Ibnu Salamah) berkata dari Hisyam bin ‘Urwah: “Bapakku pernah memberikan fatwa dengan berdasar ini.” (Dan isnadnya shahih)

Di samping itu, hadits tersebut mempunyai syawahid yang aku sebutkan dalam Kitab At ta’liqat Al Jiyad. Juga dalam Kitab As Shahihah nomor 1394 (yaitu hadits di atas).

Hadits ini sebagai dalil bahwa jika seseorang mendapati fajar mulai terbit (masuk waktu shubuh, pent.) sedangkan tempat makan atau minum masih berada di tangannya maka masih diperbolehkan baginya untuk tidak meletakkannya sampai memenuhi hajatnya (makannya).

Keadaan seperti ini termasuk hal yang dikecualikan oleh firman Allah (yang artinya): “Dan makan dan minumlah kamu hingga terang bagimu benang putih dari benang hitam yaitu fajar.” (QS. Al Baqarah : 187)

Kesimpulannya, tidak ada pertentangan antara ayat ini dan hadits-hadits yang semakna dengan hadits di atas dan tidak juga dengan ijma’. Bahkan sebagian dari shahabat Ridwanullahi ‘Alaihim Ajmain dan selain mereka berpendapat tentang terpakainya hadits itu menerangkan bolehnya sahur sampai fajar nampak jelas. (Lihat Al Fath 3/109-110)

Termasuk pula faedah dari hadits ini adalah menerangkan bid’ahnya IMSAK yang dikatakan sekitar seperempat jam sebelum shubuh (fajar). Hal ini mereka lakukan tak lain hanya karena takut mendapati adzan shubuh sedangkan mereka masih makan sahur. Tetapi seandainya mereka mengetahui rukhshah (keringanan diperbolehkannya makan untuk menyelesaikan sahur walaupun terdengar adzan, pent.) niscaya mereka tidak terjerumus ke dalam bid’ah ini.

Dinukil oleh Muhammad Dahri Qamaruddin
dari Kitab Tamaamul Minnah Fi At Ta’liqi An Fiqhi Sunnah
oleh Syaikh Muhammad Nashiruddin Al Albany rahimahullah
PENJELASAN SYAIKH ABDULLAH BIN ABDURRAHMAN BIN SHALIH AL BASSAM
(Anggota Majelis Kibarul Ulama Arab Saudi)

Hadits Nomor 177 Tentang Imsak:
Dari Anas bin Malik dari Zaid bin Tsabit radliyallahu ‘anhu, dia (Zaid) berkata: “Kami makan sahur bersama Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam kemudian beliau bangkit untuk shalat (shubuh).” Anas berkata: Aku bertanya kepada Zaid: “Berapa lama jarak antara adzan dan sahur?” Ia menjawab: “Kurang lebih sekitar (bacaan) lima puluh ayat.” (Hadits Riwayat Bukhari 1801 dan Muslim 1097)

Gharibul Hadits:
“Adzan” dalam hadits ini yang dimaksud adalah iqamat. Hal itu dijelaskan oleh hadits yang terdapat di dalam Shahih Bukhari dan Muslim dari Anas dari Zaid, ia berkata : “Kami pernah sahur bersama Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam kemudian kami bangkit untuk shalat.” Aku (Anas) bertanya : “Berapa lama antara keduanya (antara sahur dan shalat, pent)?” Ia (Zaid) menjawab : “Kurang lebih sekitar (bacaan) lima puluh ayat.”

Penjelasan Hadits
Hadits ini menjelaskan bahwa Anas bin Malik meriwayatkan dari Zaid bin Tsabit bahwa ia (Zaid) pernah makan sahur bersama Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam dan termasuk kebiasaan (sunnah) Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam adalah beliau makan sahur menjelang shubuh.

Oleh karena itulah setelah selesai makan sahur (tidak lama kemudian) beliau bangkit untuk shalat shubuh. Kemudian Anas bertanya kepada Zaid : “Berapa lama jarak antara iqamat dan sahur?” Ia (Zaid) menjawab : “Sekitar (bacaan) lima puluh ayat.”

Kandungan Hadits

1. Keutamaan mengakhirkan sahur hingga menjelang subuh
2. Bersegera melaksanakan shalat shubuh itu dekat waktunya dengan waktu imsak.
3. Waktu imsak adalah terbit fajar (masuk waktu shubuh, pent.)

Sebagaimana firman Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala (yang artinya): “Makan dan minumlah hingga terang bagimu benang putih dari benang hitam yaitu fajar.” (QS. Al Baqarah : 187)

Dengan penjelasan ini kita dapat mengetahui bahwa apa yang dilakukan kaum Muslimin dengan membuat dua waktu : Imsak dan terbit fajar (shubuh) adalah bid’ah yang tidak ada dalilnya. Yang sunnah adalah pada permulaan terbit fajar (shubuh).

Taisir Syarh Umdatul Ahkam halaman 414-415

FATWA SYAIKH MUHAMMAD BIN SHALIH AL UTSAIMIN: IMSAK TERMASUK BID’AH
Pertanyaan:
Kami melihat di sebagian kalender bulan Ramadhan terdapat bagian yang dinamakan Imsak, yaitu terjadi kira-kira 10 menit / seperempat jam sebelum masuk waktu shalat Fajar (Subuh). Apakah perkara ini ada dasarnya dari sunnah ataukah termasuk bid’ah? Berilah kami fatwa, semoga anda senantiasa mendapat pahala.
Jawaban:
Yang benar (dan tidak ragu lagi) bahwa IMSAK seperti ini termasuk BID’AH yang tidak ada dasarnya bahkan hadits Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam menyelisihinya. Karena Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala telah berfirman (yang artinya): “Makan dan minumlah hingga jelas bagimu benang putih dari benang hitam yaitu fajar.” (QS. Al Baqarah : 187)

Dan sabda Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam (yang artinya): “Sesungguhnya Bilal mengumandangkan adzan di waktu malam maka makan dan minumlah kamu hingga mendengar adzan Ibnu Ummi Maktum karena ia (Ibnu Ummi Maktum) tidak mengumandangkan adzan sampai terbit fajar.” (Hadits riwayat Bukhari 1799 dan Muslim 1092)

Imsak yang dibuat oleh sebagian orang merupakan tambahan atas apa yang diajarkan Allah ‘Azza wa Jalla. Maka hal itu termasuk perkara yang batil dan termasuk tanaththu’ (berlebih-lebihan) dalam beragama.

Rasulullah Shallallahu ‘Alaihi Wa Sallam bersabda (yang artinya): “Telah binasa orang dahulu yang berlebih-lebihan, telah binasa orang dahulu yang berlebih-lebihan, telah binasa orang dahulu yang berlebih-lebihan.” (Hadits riwayat Muslim, Kitabul Ilmi 2670)

Dinukil dari Kitab Alfadz wa Mafahimu fi Mizanisy Syari’ah
karya Syaikh Muhammad bin Shalih Al Utsaimin

To Kamal :)

2011-08-09T11:12:00.000-07:00

Have A Safe Fly And Have A Safe Journey At Indon Ok?
You Will Be Not Alone At There,We Always Beside You Even We Not At Your Indon..

Cheers Man :) Please Do Contact Us If You Buy A New SimCard,Keep In Touch Man,Miss You xD

Mervin~

Heart Still Damn Pain..

2011-07-22T10:56:00.000-07:00

June 24,End Of P.M Story..

:(

something

2011-05-11T01:35:00.000-07:00

saje nak post something :D

2011-04-25T04:38:00.000-07:00

FM STATIC ROCKS!!! HAHAHA

I've been listening to them for MANY TIMES REPETITIVELY!
they gave me such a good spirit and mood for my day ~

'nuff said XD
goin' back to enjoy my songs XD

another ends

2011-04-23T07:27:00.001-07:00

Life in matriculation Ends

Wow..i can't believe that i finally finished matriculation...
I'm glad that i successfully gone through it, but
deep down it's sad though

I've learnt a lot
seriously..
meeting,learning and practically living together with random people from various part of Malaysia does open up my eyes

IT's sad,
my friends and i really gone through a lot
we ate together,
played together
studied together
gone to trips together
sleep together
we did almost everything together...
and being apart from them while
being THAT close to each other was really disconsolate..
From now on...
we'll be move on to our own seperate lives..
a variation where every pieces now have different role..
I hope we'll meet each other again in the future...
I do not know whether anyone read my blog anymore
but if there's any..
I apologize..
forgive me for my melancholy
yes, i'm very emo rite now..

hmm...
Beginnings are scary. Endings are usually sad, but it`s the middle that counts the most.

LAst Day Of LEctUre`

2011-03-31T17:13:00.000-07:00

well, today is our last day of lecture...
kinda sad thinking about it actually
since my practicum-mates (classmates) and I are already kinda close together..
we did numerous activities together and learn many things together ( the fact that we're study in the same class XD)

well, today main focus is PHOTOGRAPHY SESSION!! XD
everyone's asking me to come today since I'm the one who holds the camera
(class photographer weh! ) XD
getting nervous but i have the lazy feeling of going to lecture today.. hmmm...
well whatever..

2011-03-24T18:43:00.000-07:00

Huhuhuhuh~
I'm sooo dead =.=

I Love You...

2011-03-19T23:15:00.001-07:00

What’s wrong? Since when?
Is this the beginning of the end
For what’s felt like a long dream?
Dark and deep
I was lost at the ends of a world
Filled with sadness
It was too good to be true
From now on
All the memories you left me
Tie together my loose heart
With love

Always

“I love you”
You taught me the meaning of the words
The image of you smiling
Just the way you are
Will remain silently
Deep within my eyes forever

Why? Was it because of that time?
We passed each other by little by little
Can we never go back to that day?
Difficult and painful
Does the sadness that you’ll never know
Have to hurt this much?

“I love you”
You taught me the meaning of the words
The image of you smiling
Just the way you are
Will remain gently
Deep within my eyes forever

‘Cause I don’t have clue what to say.
Thinking about the world and how I changed

When I turn to face you
It feels like I’m melting into you
All alone, who am I?
Hit a wall, won’t stop me!
Someday we’ll be as one, so I’ll never…

I’ll never forget the days when I believed
No matter how much time passes by
Someday I’ll awaken from this long dream…

“I love you”

Oh!wish that I was strong.

Yeah I wish that I was strong.
You got it! You got it! Don’t lose it!
The walls are caving in.
I’ll try to keep you strong.
‘Cause the world is moving on…

my chess life ^^

2011-03-05T07:12:00.000-08:00

i wanna play chess!!
it's been awhile since i played competitively
i'm not really a good player but i just love to play with others and
get to know some players while at it :)

i remembered i was introduced to play chess by my cousin,
since i already mastered "dam haji" and beat almost everyone :P
he challenge me to play chess and he taught me how to move piece by piece,
at first i hate it since it was really new for me and i was bullied by him,
but since i was the type who hates losing,
i practice and i start to play with my friends,
i challenged my friend and until i finally beat everyone chess player including teachers in my school
and i was chosen to be the school player (yay me!)
i became my school chess president when i was in form 3 and i was proud since
no one is better than me until....
this one teacher came to my school,
Mr. Chan Jun Jie, also my biology teacher..
we played and i won my first game with him,
but the rest was in vain...
we played numorous and countless game since then but i lost every single game..

when i was in form 4,
i participated in the F1 in school technology challenge,
during the competition,
while i was making some friends,
i asked them whether or not they play chess,
i played with some of them and won,
until i met this guy, Alexson leong..
we played many games and i lost every single one!!!!
urghh..
the pain of losing came back again!
it was terribly awful!
after that we became very close.
he adviced me to learn chess from books and others sources
so i do as what he told..
on november and disember,
i spent my time playing chess online and study chess online,
i found many sites and i study some grandmasters games,
i practice puzzles and i realized that i am improving rapidly!
after played some games and after trying many styles of chess,
i realized that i was influenced by Mikhail Tal's games,
his games are very wonderful and his imaginations were inhuman!
i start practising and finally i challenged my teacher and won!
we then became sparring partners and went to numerous tournament together with
my friend, Teng Yee Jinq ^^
I also able to beat alexson afterward ^^
yay me!~

Seremban Parade Open is almost here,
but the problem is,
matriculation is having some event during that time and i can't seems to join
T____T
too bad...
sighs....i miss playing la...

2011-03-03T17:37:00.000-08:00

busy busy busy busy busy
life is getting more and more "exciting" by the second!
there's a load of tutorials, and works to do and there's finals...
woaahhohohoho~~~~

dead*
well, good thing good movies and good companions are here to
bring the light of joy for me :)
what a relieve :)

talk about movie,
I'm still searching for this one movie..
Sell out!
it's a Malaysian movie that get many good reviews from random commentators as well as some die-hard moviegoer~
The movie released on 2009 but i still can't find it anywhere since then,
it's been almost 2 years!!!!

tm class end now :P gtg ya~
hehehe, blogging during tm class~
typical~

2011-03-01T21:42:00.000-08:00

i don't get it..
seriously...

2011-02-27T13:45:00.000-08:00

i never really did able to move on am i?

2011-02-23T01:13:00.000-08:00

i need motivation!!!!

2011-02-17T16:47:00.000-08:00

hey all~
I don't know whether or not anyone actually read this lame blog anyway but why bothers??
hee~

actually i'm in TM class right now,
too bored plus i finished my work so it won't hurt to blog a lil' :P

Happy Birthday dad!!

2011-02-17T07:30:00.000-08:00

ehem~!!
SELAMAT HARI JADI YAH!!
^^
hee~~~~

introduction to the man who turns 49 this year
my daddy!! ^^
Name Zainal Abidin Bin Sulaiman
he was born in a small village Kg. Pinang,Kuala Nerang,Kedah darul Naim :)
born in 18th feb 1962.
Had a fair skin, curvy hair with brown eyes with a thin figure ( now not d, muscular plus fat..TTHEEhehehehe)
A pharmacy graduates from USM Pulau Pinang, he then travel around Malaysia to find a suitable place to work
His first working place was Perlis then transferred to Pahang, then perak and other various part of Malaysia
but in the end he found one true place for him, Kuala Pilah
A place where he met my mother ^^
they eventually get married and have one annoying son with two lovely daughters :P
My dad was my hero from I was very small
he is really someone who i can look up to
someone who i can talk to
he even open minded enough
he is not just my dad,
he is my hero,icon and someone i can rely on
A guy who are well disciplined, open minded, hardworking, love nature,
caring, loving, kind, fun to be with and at certain times he can also be strict!!

Selamat Menyambut HariJadi ke-49 ayah!!
Abang doakan ayah mendapat rezeki yang melimpah-ruah, tubuh badan yang sihat, doa dimakbulkan dan
diampunkan dosa2.
Ayah dah banyak berkorban untuk keluarga dan abang harap sangat2 abang dapat menjadi kebanggaan ayah,
abang takkan hampakan ayah!!
I won't let you down!!

MAulud Nabi

2011-02-14T10:52:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum..

Salam Maulidur Rasul buat semua umat Islam ..

Mengapa Menyambut Maulidur Rasul ?
Dimasukkan oleh IbnuNafis
Label: Soal Jawab Perkara Khilafiyyah, Soal Jawab Untuk Faham

Jika ada mereka yang bertanyakan mengapa menyambut maulidul rasul. Maka jawapannya begini :

1. Dalil-dalil umum dari Al Quran yang dijadikan hujjah oleh Ulamak yang membenarkan :

فَٱلَّذِينَ ءَامَنُواْ بِهِۦ وَعَزَّرُوهُ وَنَصَرُوهُ وَٱتَّبَعُواْ ٱلنُّورَ ٱلَّذِىٓ أُنزِلَ مَعَهُ ۥۤ‌ۙ أُوْلَـٰٓٮِٕكَ هُمُ ٱلۡمُفۡلِحُونَ (١٥٧)

Maka orang-orang yang beriman kepadanya (Muhammad), dan memuliakannya, juga menolongnya, serta mengikut nur (cahaya) yang diturunkan kepadanya (Al-Quran), mereka itulah orang-orang yang berjaya.
(Surah al A’raf 157)

Di dalam ayat ini dengan tegas menyatakan bahawa orang yang memuliakan RasuluLlah sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam adalah orang yang beruntung. Merayakan maulid Nabi termasuk dalam rangka memuliakannya.

ٱلصَّلَوٰةَ وَءَاتَيۡتُمُ ٱلزَّڪَوٰةَ وَءَامَنتُم بِرُسُلِى وَعَزَّرۡتُمُوهُمۡ وَأَقۡرَضۡتُمُ ٱللَّهَ قَرۡضًا حَسَنً۬ا لَّأُڪَفِّرَنَّ عَنكُمۡ سَيِّـَٔاتِكُمۡ وَلَأُدۡخِلَنَّڪُمۡ جَنَّـٰتٍ۬ تَجۡرِى مِن تَحۡتِهَا ٱلۡأَنۡهَـٰرُ‌ۚ

Bahawa Aku adalah berserta kamu (memerhati segala-galanya). Demi sesungguhnya jika kamu dirikan sembahyang, serta kamu tunaikan zakat dan kamu beriman dengan segala Rasul (utusanKu) dan kamu muliakan mereka dan kamu pinjamkan Allah (dengan sedekah dan berbuat baik pada jalanNya) secara pinjaman yang baik (bukan kerana riak dan mencari keuntungan dunia), sudah tentu Aku akan ampunkan dosa-dosa kamu, dan Aku akan masukkan kamu ke dalam Syurga yang mengalir di bawahnya beberapa sungai.
(Surah al Ma’idah ayat 12)

Erti “azzartumuhum” ialah “memuliakan mereka” (Tafsir Tabari, juz VI halaman 151) Orang yang memuliakan Nabi akan dimasukkan ke dalam syurga. Dan menyambut Maulid Nabi adalah dalam rangka memuliakan Nabi.

2. Saya ingin menyemaikan perasaan cinta kepada RasuluLlah sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam. Di kala ramai orang yang kini semakin jauh dari perasaan cinta kepada baginda. Bukankah rasuluLlah bersabda begini :

“Belum sempurna iman seseorang dari kamu. kecuali aku lebih dikasihinya berbanding dengan keluarganya, dan hartanya dan manusia keseluruhannya.”
(Riwayat Muslim juz 11, hlm 15)

Ahh.. bukankah kita sendiri meraikan ulang tahun kelahiran sendiri ? Ibu dan ayah. Bahkan ada pula golongan yang meraikan kelahiran ‘mujaddid’ mereka sendiri ? Jika kita sendiri pun menyambut hari ulang tahun perkahwinan, hari lahir diri dan juga orang lain. Mengapa kita tidak menyambut hari kelahiran manusia agung yang pengutusannya ke muka bumi ini memberi rahmat kepada sekalian alam ?

Saidina Umar radiyaLlahu ‘anhu berkata kepada Nabi Muhammad sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam :
“Engkau lebih aku cintai daripada segala sesuatu kecuali diriku sendiri”. Baginda sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam berkata : “Tidak, wahai Umar. Sampai aku lebih kamu cintai daripada dirimu sendiri.” Saidina Umar radiyaLlahu ‘anhu berkata, “Demi Allah subahanahu wa ta’ala, engkau sekarang lebih aku cintai daripada diriku sendiri.” Baginda sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam berkata, “Sekarang wahai Umar.”
(Hadith Riwayat Bukhari, Sohih Bukhari, vol 6 hlmn 2445)

3. Maulidul Rasul itu tidak pernah dibuat oleh RasuluLLah dan ia bid’ah sesat ?

Ada dalil umum bagaimana RasuluLlah sendiri pernah menyebut mengenai hari-hari kebesaran contohnya :

Bahawasanya Nabi Muhammad sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam datang ke Madinah, maka Baginda sallaLLahu ‘alaihi wasallam mendapati di situ orang-orang Yahudi berpuasa pada Hari Asyura iaitu hari 10 Muharram, maka Nabi bertanya kepada orang Yahudi itu: Kenapa kamu berpuasa pada hari Asyura ?

Jawab mereka : ini adalah hari peringatan, pada hari serupa itu dikaramkan Fir’aun dan pada hari itu Musa dibebaskan, kami puasa kerana bersyukur kepada Tuhan. Maka RasuluLlah bersabda : Kami lebih patut menghormati Musa dibanding kamu”
(Hadith riwayat Imam Bukhari dan Muslim).

Banyak sebenarnya perkara yang tidak pernah dibuat oleh RasuluLlah tetapi dilakukan oleh sahabat dan para salafussoleh melalui ijtihad mereka dalam perkara ibadah contoh yang senaraikan oleh bekas Mufti Iraq iaitu Sheikh Abdul Malik Abdul Rahman as Sa’adi :

1. Nabi sallaLLahu ‘alaihi wasallam pernah menyamakan (qiyas) hukum menunaikan haji dan berpuasa untuk seorang yang telah mati dengan hutang terhadap hamba ALlah yang ia wajib tunaikan. (Fath al Bari, jld 4, m.s 64)

Walaupun ini tidak dianggap hukum yang telah ditetapkan oleh qiyas tetapi dengan nas, kerana RasuluLlah sallaLLahu ‘alaihi wasallam diberi kebenaran untuk mengeluarkan hukum, tetapi ini sebenarnya baginda telah membuka satu peluang atau laluan atau pintu kepada umatnya secara umum akan keharusan menggunakan qiyas. Terutama di dalam persoalan ibadah khusus kerana haji dan puasa adalah di antara bentuk ibadah.

2. Saidina Umar berpendapat bahawa tidak batal puasa seseorang yang berkucup dengan isterinya, kerana mengqiyaskan dengan berkumur-kumur ketika berpuasa. (Diriwayatkan oleh Ibnu Khuzaimah dan al Baihaqi).

3. Dalam menetapkan satu miqad baru iaitu Zatu Irq bagi jemaah Haji atau Umrah yang datang dari sebelah Iraq, Saidina Umar mengqiyaskannya dengan tempat yang setentang dengannya iaitu Qarn al Manazil. Sedangkan RasuluLlah sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam hanya menetapkan empat tempat sahaja sebagai miqat tetapi Saidina Umar menambah satu lagi iaitu Zatu Irq (menjadi lima). (Lihat al Mughni, jld 3, m.s 3 258 dan Fath al Bari m.s 389)

4. Saidina Uthman mewujudkan azan dua kali (pertama dan kedua) pada hari Jumaat diqiyaskan dengan azan 2 kali pada solat subuh dengan alasan bahawa azan yang pertama pada Solat Subuh disyariatkan pada zaman RasuluLLah sallaLLahu ‘alaihi wasallam untuk mengejutkan mereka yang sedang tidur, maka begitu juga azan yang pertama pada solat Jumaat untuk mengingatkan mereka yang sedang sibuk berniaga di pasar dan yang bekerja (Nailul al Authar : 3/322)

5. Jumhur ulama mengharuskan dua solat sunat yang bersebab pada waktu yang makruh diqiyaskan dengan solat sunat selepas Zohor yang diqadha’ oleh RasuluLLah sallaLLahu ‘alaihi wasallam selepas Solat Asar ( Lihat al Nawawi, Syarah sahih Muslim: 6/111)

6. Sebilangan besar pada ulama berpendapat, menyapu tangan sampai ke siku ketika tayammum adalah wajib diqiyaskan dengan membasuh kedua tangan ketika berwudhuk. (Lihat Mughni al Muhtaj:1/99 dan al Mughni: 1/204)

7. Bagi ulama yang berpendapat bahawa solat sunat sebelum Solat Jumaat adalah sunat muakkad mengqiyaskan dengan solat sunat sebelum Zohor. Manakala sebilangan ulama lain di antaranya Ibnu Taimiyyah dan Ibnu Qayyim berpendapat bahaya ia adalah sunat (sunat mutlak bukannya sunat muakkad) mengqiyaskannya dengan solat sunat hari raya yang tidak ada solat sunat (muakkad) sebelum solat tersebut. ((Al Fatawa: 24/194)

8. Sesetengah ulama bermazhab Hanafi mengqiyaskan air yang banyak yang tidak terjejas apabila jatuh najis ke dalamnya dengan air laut dari segi banyaknya. (al Mushili, al Ikhtiyar: 1/14)

9. Para ulama bermazhab Hambali mengharuskan ganti dengan memberi makanan sebagai kaffarat bunuh (yang tidak sengaja), kerana mengqiyaskannya dengan kaffarat zihar dan kaffarat jimak pada siang hari Ramadhan (Al Mughni: 8/97)

10. Menurut Imam Ahmad dalam satu riwayat daripadanya, dibasuh setiap benda yang terkena najis sebanyak tujuh kali, salah satunya dengan air tanah, kerana beliau mengqiyaskannya dengan sesuatu yang terkena najis anjing atau babi (Al Mughni: 1/54-55)

11. Menurut Imam Ahmad dalam salah satu pendapatnya, diwajibkan berdiri sekadar yang termampu bagi sesiapa yang tidak mampu berdiri dengan sempurna ketika solat samada kerana ketakutan atau kerana atap hendak roboh diqiyaskan dengan hukum berdiri seorang yang bongkok. (Al Mughni: 2/144)

12. Imam Malik berpendapat, diharuskan melewatkan solat bagi mereka yang ketiadaan air diqiyaskan dengan seorang perempuan yang kedatangan haid yang diharuskan melewatkan solatnya (al Mughni: 1/250)

13. Imam Abu Hanifah dan Imam asy Syafie berpendapat, sah tayammum bagi seorang yang berhadas besar dengan niat mengangkat hadas kecil diqiyaskan dengan sahnya wudhuk selepas membuang air kecil atau besar (walaupun tanpa niat untuk mengerjakan solat). (Al Mughni: 1/267)

14. Imam Malik membolehkan qadha’ solat malam yang terluput, iaitu dikerjakannya selepas terbit fajar sebelum solat Subuh diqiyaskan dengan solat witir. Tetapi ini adalah salah satu pendapat Imam Malik berhubung dengan masalah ini. (al Mughni:2/120)

15. Imam Abu Hanifah, Ath Thauri dan Al Auza’ie membolehkan lewat solat bagi mereka yang tidak menemui air dan tanah sehinggalah menemuinya, kemudian mengqadha’nya diqiyaskan dengan melewatkan puasa bagi wanita yang kedatangan haid (Al Mughni: 1/267)

Ini hanya sebahagian kecil daripada sebilangan besar persoalan ibadah yang dikeluarkan hukumnya berdasarkan kaedah qiyas. Qiyas ini adalah ijtihad dan pandangan. Oleh itu, sesiapa yang melarang menggunakan qiyas di dalam ibadah secara mutlaq, maka pendapatnya tidak dapat diterima sebagaimana yang dinyatakan tadi.

Ibnu Umar radiyaLlahu anhu berpendapat, solat Sunah Dhuha tidak digalakkan di dalam syariat Islam melainkan bagi mereka yang tiba dalam permusafiran. Beliau hanya mengerjakannya ketika tiba di Masjid Quba. Ini diriwayatkan oleh Al Bukhari daripada Mauriq katanya :
“Aku pernah bertanya kepada Ibnu Umar RadiyaLlahu ‘anhu.” Adakah kamu bersolat Dhuha? Beliau menjawab “Tidak”, Aku bertanya lagi “Adakah Umar mengerjakannya?” Beliau menjawab “Tidak”. Aku bertanya lagi ” Abu Bakar?” Jawabnya: “Tidak” Aku bertanya lagi: “RasuluLLah sallaLLahu ‘alaihi wasallam?” Jawabnya “Aku tidak pasti”.

Menurut al Hafiz Ibnu Hajar al Asqolani:

“Sebab tawaqqufnya Ibnu Umar pada masalah itu kerana beliau pernah mendengar daripada orang lain bahawa RasuluLlah sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam pernah mengerjakannya tetapi beliau tidak begitu mempercayai perkara itu daripada seorang yang menyebut kepadanya.”.

Maka, beliau menganggap solat Dhuha adalah di antara bid’ah yang baik sepertimana yang diriwayatkan oleh Mujahid daripada beliau (Ibnu Umar).

Menurut Al A’raj:

“Aku pernah bertanya Ibnu Umar berkenaan Solat Sunah Dhuha? Beliau menjawab: “Ia adalah bid’ah dan sebaik-baik bid’ah”

. (Fath al Bari: 3/52)

Sepertimana yang telah dinyatakan daripada Ibnu Umar tadi, membuktikan bahawa perkara-perkara yang baharu diwujudkan dalam ibadah memang berlaku dan diakui oleh pada sahabat RadiyaLlahu ‘anhum sendiri.

4. Adakah contoh para salafussoleh yang menyambut maulidul Rasul ?

Prof Dr Ali Jum’ah iaitu Mufti Mesir menjawab begini :
Telah menjadi kebolehan (keharusan) dan tradisi di kalangan salafussoleh sejak abad ke 4 dan ke 5 merayakan peringatan maulid nabi sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam yang agung. Mereka menghidupkan malam maulid dengan pelbagai ketaatan dan ibadah pendekatan kepada Allah seperti memberi makan fakir miskin, membaca al Quran, berzikir, melantunkan puisi-puisi dan puji-pujian tentang rasuluLlah. Hal ini ditegaskan oleh sebilangan ulama seperti : Al Hafizh Ibnu Jauzi, Al Hafizh Ibnu Katsir, Al Hafizh Ibnu Dihyah, al Hafizh Al Hebatusi, Al Hafizh Ibnu Hajar dan Penutup Huffazh (para penghafaz hadith dalam jumlah yang sangat banyak) Jalaluddin Al Suyuthi.

5. Ulamak lain yang membenarkan ?

Dalam kitab al Madkhal, Ibnu Hajj menjelaskan dengan panjang lebar tentang keutamaan yang berkaitan dengan perayaan ini dan dia mengemukakan huraian penuh manfaat yang membuat lapang hati orang yang beriman.

Imam Jalaluddin al Suyuthi dalam bukunya ‘Husnul Maqshid fi Amalil Maulid’ memberikan penjelasan tentang Maulid Nabi sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam :

Menurutku, bahawa hukum dasar kegiatan maulid yang berupa berkumpulnya orang-orang yang banyak, membaca beberapa ayat-ayat al Quran, menyampaikan khabar-khabar yang diriwayatkan tentang awal perjalanan hidup Nabi sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam dan tanda-tanda kebesaran yang terjadi pada waktu kelahiran Baginda, kemudian dihidangkan makanan untuk mereka dan emreka pun makan bersama, lalu mereka pun berangkat pulang, tanpa ada tambahan kegiatan lain. Adalah termasuk bid’ah hasanah dan diberikan pahala bagi orang yang melakukannya. Imam para hafizh Abu Fadhl Ibnu Hajar telah menjelaskan dasar hukumnya sunnah.

Imam Abu Syamah berkata :
Suatu hal yang baik ialah apa yang dibuat pada tiap-tiap tahun bersetuju dengan hari maulud Nabi Muhammad sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam memberi sedekah, membuat kebajikan, maka hal itu selain berbuat baik bagi fakir miskin, juga mengingatkan kita untuk mengasihi junjungan kita Nabi Muhammad sallaLlahu ‘alaihi wasallam membesarkan beliau, dan syukur kepada Tuhan atas kurniaanNya, yang telah mengirim seorang Rasul yang dirasulkan untuk kebahagiaan seluruh makhluk
(I’anatut Tholibin, juzu’ III, halaman 364) – Imam Abu Syamah adalah seorang ulamak besar Mazhab Syafie dan merupakan guru kepada Imam An Nawawi.

Ya Allah jadikanlah kami senantiasa menyintai Nabi Muhammad sallaLLahu ‘alaihi wasallam

Sumber rujukan :

1. Prof Dr Ali Jum’ah, Penjelasan Terhadap Masalah-masalah KhilafiahAl Bayan – Al Qawin li Tashbih Ba’dhi al Mafahim, .2008, Penerbitan Dar Hakamah, Selangor

2. K.H Sirajuddin Abbas, 40 Masalah Agama, Pustaka Aman Press, Kelantan, Malaysia

3. As Shiekh al Hafiz Abu al Fadl AbduLlah al Siddiq al Ghumari, Makna Sebenar Bid’ah Satu Penjelasan Rapi, Cetakan 2007, Middle East Global (M) Sdn. Bhd, Selangor.

4. Dr Abd Malik Abd Rahman As Sa’adi, Salah Faham Terhadap Bid’ah, al Bid’ah fi al mafhum al islami ad daqiq, Darul Nu’man, 2002, Kuala Lumpur

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2011-02-14T07:52:00.000-08:00

being in love was wonderful rite?
everything was sweet until u lost the one u loved...

to tell you the truth letting someone go is really
hard..
I have to take deal that it is over between herself and me..

But I'm still thankful that Allah never leaves His creation go astray.
and i realized, broke up with her was truly a benefits..

I've always told and advice people,
"Allah let everything to happens for a purpose, good or bad, it happens for a reason and that reason is always for the best of us."
I've always searching for that reason but i never found it until a few days ago,
and you know what?
I'm grateful for it ^^

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sins,
would look on me with love,
and watch me rise again..
Who am I, that the voice that calm the sea,
would called out through the rain,
and calm the storm in me..
Not because of who i am
because of what you've done,
not because of what I've done
but because of who you are.
I'm a flower quickly faDING
here today and gone tommorow...
a wave tossed in the ocean.
a vapour in the wind
still You, hears me when I'm calling
You catch me when I'm falling
and you told me who I am....
I'm yours..
Ya Allah,
I belong to you,
I am yours..

2011-02-13T06:50:00.000-08:00

I LOVE CHESS!!

omg seriously weh,,,
chess is seriously my first love...
hee~

2011-02-08T04:58:00.000-08:00

I can be your best friend
and your worst enemy,
choose what you want me to be?

holiday baby~

2010-10-27T07:19:00.000-07:00

ah, finally exam has ended dragging along sem 1.
i knew that I've made A LOT of mistakes. and yes it is A LOT!!
and i pretty much blow it.

pretty much meaning i HAVE to score in sem 2 which i am assuming it is WAYYY harder.
but first! Holiday baby~

enjoying the holiday u ask?
hmm, i will!!

Selamat Hari Raya

2010-09-10T23:44:00.000-07:00

nuff said

2010-07-21T20:45:00.000-07:00

yo yo yo~~
hahaa^^
who goes there?
YOU! yeah! you!!
what are you doing?
oh?
reading my blog is it?
okay, carry on ^^

wee~ thank you matric for giving me the best present ever~ HOLIDAY!!! HAHAHA!!
exams wasn't hard at all, just that when u have too much of positive thinking
u always put yourself into insecure mode which brings you many mistakes to be made =.=
so far i still don't have plan for the holidays..
so i think i just have to study until any events come along.

XO!! EVA!! i wanna meet you!!
I WANNA PLAY CHESS!! but too bad no chess tourney so far... T__T

2010-06-18T08:44:00.000-07:00

I look back on the footprint I’ve left again and again
Thinking “Where am I now?”
I scooped up the dead leaves in my arms
And drew my dreams on the autumn window with my numb fingertips

I have wings but I can’t fly
I’m afraid of being alone, it’s too painful
We’re leaving behind those days of cuddling in the gentle sun
And walking on to our lonely dreams

Goodbye isn’t a sad word
It’s a yell that connects us to our respective dreams
I’ll hold the days we spent together in my heart
And take off alone to my next sky

Why do we get impatient for an answer
And search for ourselves in darkness so deep that we get lost in it?
When we have the tears and straightforward smiles
Of just loving someone, right here?

When it comes to our real selves, we get off track, get confused
And think it’s made up by other people’s words
We’ll take hold of our natural weakness and the strength to face it
And start running to tomorrow for the first time

Maybe every time we say goodbye to someone
We can change, we can become stronger
Even if we take off to different skies
This love won’t stop, it still remains in my heart

Ever since I realised there’s no such thing as eternity
The day we laughed together, and the day we sang together
Have become strongly, deeply carved into my heart
That’s why you, that’s why we
Aren’t anybody else, can’t be beaten by anyone
We raised our voices and promised that we’d live our lives our way
Each of us chose our own path

Goodbye isn’t a sad word
It’s a yell that connects us to our respective dreams
Until we meet again someday
I won’t forget this pride, my friend, into the sky

We have a word that we share
It’s a yell that connects our voices, one heart to another
I’ll hold the days we spent together in my heart
And take off alone to my next sky

2010-05-25T05:51:00.000-07:00

As you can see(probably), college is taking the TOLL on me..

Tutorials are hectic.. its like pages of questions to be done with increasing difficulty..

Practical is ok la.. but only done Physics so far.. so nothing much..

Lectures are fun though... there's one sub-chapter in Physics which makes me hate Physics.. Vectors(forces in equilibrium)..

I never concentrated about this in form 4.. and now, I'm paying for it!

This should give you a hint

Arranged a 'meeting' with Mr Loke.. for him to teach me that part again... hope it will be clear then..

College is hectic, stressful, pressurising... but nevertheless.. its fun!
Dashini can't park.. haha.. We went out to Jusco then when we came back... she couldnt park her car.. she was like shifting her gear when we stopped.. "I dunno how to do la".. then I offered to help, and before she got out, she turned on the Hazard lights.. just to park! Big emergency i tell you.. hahaha...

Bio we're learning the simpletons..

Chemistry, I du

I come back tired, but I hold my sleep.. if I sleep, I wont feel drowsy at night..

Then around 10,
drowsiness kicks in.. and 'snore'..

In retrospect I really wasted the 5 months of holidays..

Plus no time for GAMES! also..

The subject I enjoy the most is undoubtedly Biology.. Its fun, fast-paced, entertaining and educational..

When I couldnt solve the Physics.. I hated myself so much.. I just wanted to drop college.. haha..

Thx for tuning in..

Another life of a TARC-ian

2010-05-23T07:25:00.000-07:00

Hey there~

Kamarul's here ^^

So, how was everyones doing?

fine? no?

however you feel is important cause it affect your ways life and thinking.

Same apply for myself.

I'm starting to like college life and starting to adapt the lifestyle here.

It has been two weeks and I have completed my first week of a levels
YAY~ *clap*

Many have changed..i mean myself
for these two weeks

I've become even more diciplined
I slept at 11p.m because i need to wake up early.
I woke up at 4a.m everyday just to study until 6a.m.
Bath.
Breakfast at 7
then go college at 7.30 (class starts at 8)
after college go bak home changed and go back to colleges' gym.
dinner around 8.30p.m
and do some revision or maybe tutorial until 10.30
bath & sleep.

Seriously, in my hometown i was a very lazy boy that reluctant to do most things.
I procrastinate a lot
but here, even online seems boring.
So...books here i come~

A levels really are intensive.
my classes usually ends at 6 while the earliest is at 4a.m that is on monday.
we have all five subject
General Paper, Physics, Math, Biology and Chemistry.
while there are subjects that are made compulsory for us to pass by the Malaysian Goverment is Malaysian Studies and Pendidikan Islam/Moral.
Though it is considered Maximum to take 4 subjects for A levels in science, we have five. Which also means we can drop any subject that we don't want/need.

Maybe i'm going to drop physics by the end of this sem

2010-05-13T09:29:00.000-07:00

It Been A Long Time I didn't Update The Blog =X

Hahaha.. I Guess I Got Nothing To Share About It..

Mervin

One step forward

2010-05-09T17:52:00.000-07:00

Now i just realized how comfy my bed is.

:(((((

Started staying in KL already.

have to restart everything.

I just made friends with the my new housemates who is also the house leader.

We talked for some time and she asked me that do I have any friends here nearby and i told them i don’t.

She then asked me whether or not want to meet her friend.
so this is how the conversation went roughly.

Rain :”hey, do you have any friend/s nearby?”

Me :”Not that I recalled”

Rain :”Wanna meet my friend?”

Me :”huh? Why?”

Rain :”Just meet~”

Me :”Anything.”

Rain :”ok ^^”

*Rain start calling her friend..and asked whether she’s busy or not. Fortunately her friend is busy…but unfortunately for me, she set for us to meet on Tuesday. PAISEH aaa =.=.

Living alone independently is quite tiring but I love the feeling of washing my own cloths,sweeping the floor and do everything without anyone else to tell me :)

I don’t know why but usually in my own house when asked to do these things I just don’t want to and very reluctant to do it. But living here maybe it already be my responsibility to do it myself. But the weird thing is I never enjoyed doing these before while i’m doing it happily now. Maybe it’s the responsibility stuff again or maybe I just don't like being told what to do.

Though everything i said was sounded i like this place. There are certain parts that I might take time to get use to.

For example,

Sleeping! yes…this is the HARDEST part.. It’s like damn hot in here… I got a big fan turning on full speed but it still hot and I felt like a Barbequed human…

1st attempt, Sleep with cover.

2nd attempt, sleep without cover

3rd attempt, turn fan to full speed

4th attempt, take off shirt

5th attempt, go bath…then wipe dry and sleep

yeah..it took me 2 freakin’ hour just to get myself to sleep…

I miss my bed.

then..

I have to get myself as quiet as possible.. because all my housemates seems to be sooo damn quiet.. well, although it just 3 of them back and 2 of them come back at 9-11p.m but still…

I WANT TO BUY A HEADPHONE!! I want to sing :(

Oh ya, thank you Jackson for giving me the link of the website.. I love it! Will treat you lunch next time we meet =)

Ok, I should go and prepare for my orientation later.

College starts today.

YAY~

Happy Mothers Day

2010-05-07T22:58:00.000-07:00

You told me how little you've done for us
How disappointing you are to me
How you can't make the best of herself for us
How you ruined my life

But it's just because you care.

But you forgotten...
How much you suffer in pain giving birth to me
How much you stay up late when i'm sick
How much you spend your time to listen to me when i'm having problems
How much you care about me when i'm hurt
How much you gave me support when i'm down
How much you encouraged me when i'm lack of confident.
How much you worked so hard to send me to school, gaining knowledge
How much you taught me
How much you lied just not to make me cry
How much you tried you best just for me
But what you want from me is a smile.

Mom, you sacrificed so many just for me.
A child of yours like myself
are grateful to have a mother like you.
What you gave to me,
It is impossible to repay you

Thank you mom for loving me.
Thank you for giving birth to me.
Thank you for supporting me.
Thank you for everything
and finally..
Thank you for being my mother.
I love you mom

My Mother

2010-05-07T22:47:00.000-07:00

It was you who told me with your teary voice
looking away

That if you couldn’t lie anymore
Living on would not be possible

Since you wanted to be loved
You kept on laughing
Through any hardship

Sadness is something
I could endure
If I were alone

Kindness is so
Cruel, Isn’t it?

Even your heart
Becomes confused

I want to be together forever but
Things I dont like about you seem to
Increase by each passing day

Were like-minded, arent we?
I feel like I understand

I have someone I can love now
If that day were ever to come
I wonder if I could change

Happiness is
Although it doesnt
Shine like magic

Isn’t hatred
Just a slight misunderstanding?
Please dont cry

Mere fate
Is something you can change
Crying into the night as I ran from the house

And in that secluded park bench
I waited for you to come pick me up

Sadness is a thing
If snuggled together,
A thing of great warmth

Kindness is
If its close to you
Its taken advantage of

Hey
Im happy
Probably because

I had you
With me

formspring.me

2010-04-26T22:02:00.001-07:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/symphonies

Cher.ry

2010-04-15T03:32:00.000-07:00

Romanization
te no hira de furueta
sore ga chiisa na yuuki ni natteitan da
emoji wa nigate datta
dakedo kimi kara dattara waku waku shichau

henji wa sugu ni shicha dame datte
dareka ni kiita koto aru kedo
kakehiki nante dekinai no
...suki na no yo ah ah ah ah

*koi shichattan da tabun kidzuitenai deshou?
hoshi no yoru negai komete CHE.R.RY
~yubisaki de okuru kimi he no message

sakura ga saiteiru
kono heya kara mieteru keshiki wa zenbu
ima kimi ga kanjita
sekai to juubyou torikaete morau yori

honno ichigyou demo kamawanain da
kimi kara no kotoba ga hoshiin da
uso de mo shinjitsudzukerareru no
...suki dakara ah ah ah ah

*repeat

amaku naru kajitsu ga ii no
nani ge nai kaiwa kara sodatetai
ah ah ah ah

koi no hajimari mune ga kyun to semaku naru
itsu made mo matteru kara
haru no tsumetai yokaze ni azukete message

*repeat

CHER.R.Y

2010-04-15T03:31:00.001-07:00

my palm trembled
and that was turning into a small courage
I’d always disliked emoji*, but I got excited if they were from you

it’s no good if I reply too soon
I heard that from someone before, but
I can’t do these strategy things
…I like you

**I’ve fallen in love
probably, you don’t realize it, right?
putting a wish into the starry night, CHE.R.RY
with my fingertips, I send a message toward you

the sakura are blossoming
the entire scenery that can be viewed from this room
now, I’d rather exchange it for the world you felt for ten seconds

I don’t mind even if it’s just one line
I want words from you
I can even keep on believing lies
…because I like you

**repeat

the fruit that grow sweet are good
I want to grow them from casual conversation

the start of love
my heart contracts with a clench
no matter how long, I’ll be waiting
the message I entrust to the cold night wind of spring

**repeat

aimless

2010-04-15T03:28:00.001-07:00

being non-employed really not a fun thing.
kinda bored and i really feel useless and feel shame for being non-productive.

=\

on the other hand,
we work.
i feel bored jz by sitting there waiting for customer.
or...mayb i should find other work.
but i don't think that's a good idea since i'm going to start my college life soon.
argh! life aren't just consistent enough.

Alone At Kuala Pilah

2010-04-04T05:34:00.002-07:00

Alone.. Lonely....
After Tomorrow I Will Lonely And Bored In Kuala Pilah,But I Need To Acpt It..
Well.. Now Is My Time To Study,Because No More Going Out At Night.. Good For Me Too ^^

Guys: I hope you all won't 4get me =)

Alone At Kuala Pilah

2010-04-04T05:34:00.001-07:00

2010-03-29T09:19:00.001-07:00

Love movie make me sick..
...The Ending always the same one... Not the boy be with the girl larh,bla bla bla..
and so ON!!

CRAP... Why don't just say I LOVE YOU,Easy.. Do those movie to lie people,teach people how to in love?....

WHAT THE HELL I TALKING ABOUT..(Crazy)

2010-03-22T05:42:00.001-07:00

2010-03-22T05:40:00.001-07:00

2010-03-22T02:21:00.001-07:00

UB with frenz

After Sport Day And PRS camp

2010-03-17T11:05:00.002-07:00

I HURT MY BACK..
AND IT WAS VERY PAIN~

After Sport Day And PRS camp

2010-03-17T11:05:00.001-07:00

2010-03-03T07:04:00.001-08:00

One word that always in my brain..
PATIENCE

Mr.Mervin..

2010-03-01T22:27:00.000-08:00

Bursting with laughters~
that's what happened to my friend and I during the Seremban Parade Open
kinda love the intensity of a tournament although the atmosphere usually making me nervous and excited at the same time..
My hands keep on shivering right after each won though...
wonder why..maybe i really have high level of thyroxine..hope not to get goitre though
Pui! Pui! *step

hmm...what's next?
there's SPM result to be taken...
omg! SPM result...this would really be scary moment in life
yeah..3 months are really flowing fast and i am still in the middle of nowhere
well..at least i'm making progress with my car and JPJ test 2moro!!
horrraayy...wish me luck everyone! It'll be a cemetary drive
hahahhaa!! hope not to give my marker a heart attack and high blood pressure!
pray to god i'll pass =)

and...there's reunion I have to attend to... woah~
20th to KL..and CHESS TOURNEY on the next day!! wahahahha
i went to 4 chess tourney for these 3 months already and I'm satisfy with each result ^^
Hope this Stonemaster Chess tourney will be an easy one for me =)

hmm..there's Penang...shit!
i haven't found a place for me to stay in Penang...
DEATH...

march is herE~

2010-03-01T22:17:00.000-08:00

SUNDAY^ It's SUNDAY!!

2010-02-26T00:45:00.000-08:00

gosh, Seremban Parade Open is on sunday..
My preparation?
NOTHING!!
damn, i'm good..

erm...this time it could be even more interesting as we might have a possibility to up against my own fren and teacher !
wahaha...
Sir Jun Jie, Yee JinQ , Zain, Me, Nayeem, Gan..Waiting for you all
too bad alexson can't join this time though

2010-02-20T21:07:00.001-08:00

on second thought

2010-02-15T20:24:00.000-08:00

sighs... i thought this would never be an issue already
but i was wrong.

now it coming back to haunt me again...

Pharmacy or Tourism management?

both have their pro and cons and but to think i've already made up my mind

on pharmacy but it struck me back yesterday to rethink the plans.

urrghh...i hate being indecisive

it seems that tourism really seems interesting.

Oh god I need help..

2010-02-11T11:09:00.000-08:00

BLOG..!!!
I'M BACK (Mr.Mervin)

YUP~ This year life is kinda of happy,because last year in PI CHUNG already..
I'm kinda a little bit sad,because got many thing happen before new year...
But the good news is...
I change my life already!
NO MORE EMO
NO MORE WEARING MASK
NO MORE LONELY
NO MORE NEGATIVE THINKING

Today was a sleepless night...
I MISS YOU ALL GUYS
I NEED YOU ALL GUYS
I WANT YOU ALL GUYS
I LOVE YOU ALL GUYS
I MISS YOU ALL GUYS
(Last year from5)

2010-02-10T21:16:00.001-08:00

Working at my dad pharmacy was ok
tiring but fun when some of my dad's friend came..
some of the old folks like to lepak there and have a chat
it's just like coffee shop or some food stall jz that here we sell drugs.
haha...there's sooo much to know from them, they talk about their past lives( it kinda boring when they started to compare with current era), about politics , about movies and yes, they gossip as well

On the other hand...
after work, my life at home was quite unproductive. I jz sitting infront of my laptop watching some movies.
Only jog when there's someone to accompany...feel kinda lazy to jog alone =\
CNY is coming and
Happy Chinese New Year to ALL my chinese friends
Happy Valentine's to Those who are celebrating?
Happy birthday to Valentine's baby especially Ms. Lee Nian Mei!!!!

roger and out

2010-02-05T04:47:00.000-08:00

ggeeee~~ i love penang so much
whenever i went Penang i feel like i'm in paradise~
why?
well..there's foods!
yes foods. The foods are deliciousss...mmm mmm
almost makes me drool everytime i think bout it =P

well..there's chess!~
why chess? well..coz usually i went there for tournament!!
haha..yeah how pathetic but what to do?
I LOVE CHESS!!
CHESS IS MY DRUGS!
well..not THAT obsessed though

and there's beach
well..penang is an island rite?

and there's..ermm...
books! mall!
lol...
and and and...
foods!!
eh..i mentioned foods. >.<

well..it's just that i love Penang..yeah..
i guess u all get the idea d eh?

Reincarnated

2010-01-22T21:54:00.000-08:00

HEy BLOG!!
I'm Back!!
It's been a while since the king of this blog came
well..been quite busy with life recently
with works,license lecture and practical,chess and all
but i had soo much fun
Going to penang on 29th of december and i have been anticipating for it!!!!
This time i am going to bring my camera and my laptop! I DONT CARE!!
hmm...i should take more picture this time..
ALEXSON!!
fast fast out PLKN!!
Siow Ping!!
YOU TOO!!!
EVA!!
fast fast come back Malaysia!!
then we all come out yamcha!

Steven HCY..cHiNEse NEw year u got come back from singapore ma?
haha...i wanna go ur house weh!! wahahaha!!

ALL HAIL THE KING!

2009-12-20T10:34:00.000-08:00

This few days my mood damn bad,really very easy get angry..
I trying to control my mood,maybe because of next year life make me like that? Or i too free so go think about those sad things?

Sometimes when i went out with friends,i rather be speechless listen them chat what..
Because i really can't join their topic,so i just can use my bad habit "COPY and PAST" as they always say me like to "copy their topic then past it" well never mind i already don't care about it...

Is there many things can chat,if there got many things to chat i now wont bored till nothing to chat with friends.. When we meet a new friend then we got many thing to chat,after a few month like that no more contact already.. Got sometimes see them online just say "HI" to them,then they will reply i'm busy chat next time.. Their next time is when?!

This month let me feel sucks,because really moody,i just get my license just for 5 days like that.. Then i die engine when want go out the road,then let those people who are at my back scold "FUCK YOU" "BABI". OK i'm sorry for blocking you all,but why you want to scold me? Did you see the "P" on my car,Are blind or what?You want to RUSH to where heaven or hell?!.. OK just now my friend company me with another friends, he say you see "They can drive like that smooth.. why you can't",I just answer i don't want to talk much to you, there is many things you haven't try don't.. i does not mean you are noob then me or pro then me, just want to explain to you "they" is they i'm "ME"

School going to reopen already, my mind FULL OF HATE WORDS..
Hate wake up early
Hate go to school
Hate staying in class
Hate alone
Hate homework
Hate see those people that i hate
Hate meet those annoying teacher
Hate walk back to home
Hate late back home
Hate the school canteen d food
Hate a bunch of thing happen in school or in class
Hate SPM
Hate cut my hair
Hate wear school uniform

HATE HATE HATE ALL HATE...

by Mervin

2009 is going to end..

2009-12-16T04:15:00.001-08:00

2009 is going to END..
2010 is coming..

Salutations from Penang

2009-12-11T12:55:00.000-08:00

hello...gosh it's a long time since i updated my blog
well...so say hi to all ^^
In penang computer center now and it's 4.55a.m!!!
yeah i know it's early and i had my breakfast, two half-boiled egg + hot tea
it such an delicous combinations
haha

well...living in Penang generally was nice and really enjoying
i even thought of migrating here when i have a family but who knowS rite?
Staying in my teacher friends' house and it was really nice despite that i am getting hard time to fall asleep...

hmm..yesterday was really a great day
We went to the Pragin mall and I try some nasi beriyani near Komtar
and it is urmm urmmm DELICIOUS!! wahaha
at nite we had our dinner near Queensbay at the kopitiam recommended by my teacher's friend and it is quite good also ^^
then we went to the Queensbay and too bad Swensens is now closed..
sighs..3 months ago it is still there and now no more..
well..will play some chess today and see what happens
hopefully i might pull out some wins la of course or some lesson ^^
well..so sleepy now
going to sleep now
Byes~

2009-11-15T07:03:00.001-08:00

Well Tomorrow is the last day to you all in school,kinda of miss you all guys man.. Although we still can meet,but i cant c you all guys in school.. After you all finish SPM we go k.l open one farewell PARTY OK?!

Happy Graduate GUYS!!! And Good luck in SPM~

Mervin~

2009-11-14T04:49:00.000-08:00

SIGH~!!!

2009-11-07T08:56:00.000-08:00

Don't what happen to me again,feel don't have heart to done anything...!!

Sibling

2009-10-24T06:18:00.000-07:00

Hmm...i think i hav nvr posted any pic with me and two of my sister together.
Went to UB with seik jun, kok wai, vai sin and chee kang today..
We do some hiking before we end up somewhere near the waterfall... They were splashing around like mad while i do what i always do whenever i go UB, arranging rocks.
I break my old record weh!! The water level from my knee risen till it reach my waist... Yeah i arrange the rocks to work as a dam..
Am nw waiting a the bus station while the geng are in ''nine king coconut''.. Dunno hav to wait for how long though...
Saw some leng luiS passing by and suddenly saw this one pretty girl who is kinda familiar. Then she came to me and then it struck --- it was one my best friend during primary school... She transfered a few years back. We did chat awhile but it was enough... 
No school on monday due to the pertabalan Tengku Mukhriz as the Yam Tuan of Negeri Sembilan also means we are able to use the new shortcut to seremban which will reduce the time taken to seremban by 20-30 mins horray!!
ChanJanet,Alexson!! After spm we form team of four with one of these ppl (zhen xing, canon gan, yee jinq, zain, mr. Chan)...

2009-10-22T09:25:00.000-07:00

Arh..!!!!
Arh..!!!!
Arh..!!!!
Arh..!!!!
Arh..!!!!
Arh..!!!!
Arh..!!!!
Arh..!!!!
Arh..!!!!

2009-10-14T08:11:00.000-07:00

2009 going to end already,time to say good bye to my good friends...
Hope we can meet if we got time,well SPM is coming already gambateh everyone =)

After They are graduation,i mind become lonely in school,well i'm going to accept the truth.. No matter how lonely i in school,no matter how hard to pass the year,i'm really to face it..!!

I now feel so regret,because i wasted too much times.... It was to late to regret,but i promise myself next year will be better... But i always just only use mouth to say,and just type in blog In the end = ZERO..

2009-10-09T23:10:00.001-07:00

Words that will never be too much if you say them a thousand times
Words that I keep wanting to hear
Words that are like magic to us
I love you, I love you

Chapter One.
ONE don't be cheap, say you love her at least twice a day
TWO anytime, anywhere, express consideration and esteem to each other
THREE casually send a letter, write it by pen instead of an email
FOUR refreshing morning call
FIVE sweet lullaby
SIX forget about who's watching, surprise her with a kiss in front of a crowd
SEVEN full tight event
EIGHT a date just for her
NINE rewind to the beginning, just like the first sensations
TEN when you miss her so much, run immediately to her

Words that will never be too much if you say them a thousand times
Words that I keep wanting to hear
Words that are like magic to us
I love you, I love you

Ooh ooh I'm happy every and each moment
I love you, I need you, always
My heart it filled only with you
I love you, I love you

Mighty Mouth everybody
Mighty Mouth

Chapter Two.
ONE forget about all your past lovers: Taehee, Hyegyo, Eunhye, Younha
TWO dont compare her with anyone in the world, you are so beautiful
THREE when you can't contact her
FOUR when you disagree a little
FIVE arguing about random stuff, it'll help you to get to know each other
SIX when you endure it once more and you wait once more, the love will grow
SEVEN believe her no matter what others say
EIGHT like the protagonist in a movie
NINE even if the sky collapsed, be ready to protect only her
TEN she's a star, now give your love to her

Words that will never be too much if you say them a thousand times
Words that I keep wanting to hear
Words that are like magic to us
I love you, I love you

Ooh ooh I'm happy every and each moment
I love you, I need you, always
My heart it filled only with you
I love you, I love you

Love class is starting
Please do as I say
Step One. Memorize this song
Step Two. Sing this song
Step Three. Love forever
It's really easy

Words that will never be too much if you say them a thousand times
Words that I keep wanting to hear
Words that are like magic to us
I love you, I love you

Words that will never be too much if you say them a thousand times
Words that I keep wanting to hear
Words that are like magic to us
I love you, I love you

My Friend who accident last time..

2009-10-09T07:19:00.001-07:00

Wow.. The first thing you see this photo,you will feel OUCH that is very HURT..!!!

Meet Irwan/Ipin

2009-10-04T01:16:00.001-07:00

Haha...meet my cute cousin
A very cute boy no matter how you look at him. Appearance or behaviour.
He's unpredictable also weh. You all should see what his reaction when he saw the cow. We all like O.o when we saw he chase the herd of cows away.. Really weh
The cow was 5 times bigger than that guy
Haha
And b4 he sleep he always have one wish to be fulfill b4 he able to sleep. And the thing is really simple and yet funny.
There's one time he ask my aunt he want to my aunt to put a plate on the table so that he can clean it up
Zadao

>.<

2009-10-01T05:34:00.000-07:00

Don't knows if this is true, but forewarned is forearmed. Avoid putting
yourself in these kind of situations.

Please read n exercise caution.

This happened to me yesterday at Sunway Damansara ( traffic light
junction turning to Palm Spring Condo), at 3pm afternoon ..it was red
light and i was the 2nd car stopped at the traffic light..2
Malays on a motorbike stopped near my car and 1 Malay got down from the
motor smashed my passenger side window ,sprayed pepper spray on my eyes
and snatch the handbag away... it just happened within a second.. and i
horneed, horned, and horned ... no one could really help.. and I
suffered pain in my eyes, face and hand.. I lost everything inclusiding
my hand phone.Thieves are smarter now. With your eyes in pain , you are
unable to rush to bank or police station to make report. You cannot even
see their faces and number plate. They used my credit card at petrol
station near by
after snatching my handbag.

Pls be alert and DO NOT put your handbag at the passenger side. Stay
alert whenever u go and Don't be the next victim.. Thank god ,my kids
was not with me when things happened....

Annie

When staying in Hotels / Hostels
Please keep in mind when you are travelling alone and forward to female
friends and colleagues who may travel alone. To the guys, share this
with your sisters and all those women you know. I've always used the
menu which hang outside your doorknob to order breakfast when on
business trips.

I was recently staying at a well-known hotel and I ordered room service
for the next day on the flyer-like thing that you stick outside your
door.

On this order form, one writes her name, how many persons will be
eating, your room number, time of delivery and etc. I hung it on the
outside of my door for collection - it was a mistake! I had given
someone all the ammunition that he would need.

That someone went to my door-tag got my name and room number. And then
told the front desk that he was my husband (remember my tag showed 1
female name) and that he needed a new key. The clerk WITHOUT ASKING FOR
ID OR CALLING MY ROOM GAVE HIM MY ROOM KEY!

At 2 a.m .. I was awakened by my door opening (luckily I had put the
security bar across) with a man's hand trying to figure out how to get
the bar undone. I started yelling at him and told him that I was on the
phone with the police. He shut the door and left. I called down to the
lobby and spoke with the Front Desk - I wanted to alert Security about
the incident.

The hotel staff person said and I quote, "Oops, sorry about that" then
hung up. Well, let's just say that I was both terrified and angry the
rest of the night. Next morning, I spoke with a Hotel Manager whose eyes
almost popped out of his head when he learned that his clerk had given
an unidentifi ed stranger a key to my room. Am I glad that I am typing
this to all of you with my 2 year old kid on my lap. I don't want to
think of what might have happened if the safety chain/bar had not been
secured.

Please forward this to your female family members & friends. Better be
safe than sorry.

About Malaysian Security Guards - Must Read..IMPORTANT! !!

Don't work too late, Ladies, please take care and you men please tell
your wife to make Sure that they are not alone when they stay back to
work.Let me tell you a true story.

A girl was raped and murdered.. She went back to work on a public
holiday with another girl, the boyfriend even packed lunch for them and
later when the girls wanted to go home, the car couldn't start and the
other girl's boyfriend came to pick her up, but didn't wait coz the girl
told them to go off first and there was a security guard helping her.

She didn't come home that night and they found her body in a burnt car
abandoned in a rubber Estate in Dengkil on the 3rd day.
The guard reported to work and acted normal during the police
investigation but when the Police questioned him again, he remembered
the colour of her clothes in detail and they noticed that the hair on
his hands were seared although there was no burnt marks. He finally
admitted to killing her. There was no cover up but the case was not in
the papers.

Don't ever trust the security guards.Be sure to keep the office door
locked

Hey girls, Be forewarned and please be doubly, even triply cautious
whenever there is a need to stay back late at work.

If at all possible, leave early when there are still people around.
Better yet, if there is work that must absolutely be completed by that
day, take it home!

Just heard about another rape case at a multinational company.
The victim is married with kids, she worked till 11pm. Security guard
raped her in the toilet. She managed to escape and drove herself to the
hospital. Next day, the other employees were shocked to see the
condition of the toilet. Blood and her hair everywhere, and all the
brooms and mops were broken. The police later came and arrested the
security guard, who still reported for work the next day. However, they
managed to cover it up and this didn' get in the news or anything.I can
imagine how many such cases have been covered up in Malaysia . (This is
a sad reality)

Please girls, don't put your life in danger by working late or being
negligent. You can never be too careful. Malaysia ranks number 2 in
crime against women.

My extra note: guys, please tell your mom, your sister, your wife,
girlfriends and all your female friends around you too!

2009-09-26T09:32:00.001-07:00

2009-09-26T08:27:00.000-07:00

Today is the day that i most happy and most sad one..
Happy ones is i finally can take picture with my "kai" jie penny..
Sad ones is my uncle have just pass away,in this afternoon..
And now i duno what is my feeling... EMO? Sad?

Love is an excuse to get hurt?

2009-09-25T10:35:00.000-07:00

Love really is an excuse to get hurt?,is that true for me i say "yes"
=)

i am not an angel

2009-09-24T10:27:00.000-07:00

:*¨`*: •. I'm not an angel. • :*¨`*: •.

. • :*¨`*: •. I'm not an angel. • :*¨`*: •.

I have small mistakes Crown Crown bitter sins which I will not be big

. • :*¨`*: •. I'm not an angel. • :*¨`*: •.

The sad, but I quickly forget ... Has been attacked, but I was soon looking for a reason

The furious, but I soon seek satisfaction behind ..

. • :*¨`*: •. I'm not an angel. • :*¨`*: •.

I think one of them was ill, but I go back and ask for forgiveness and to allow

And I apologize for Tgosairi and Tsraei was a mistake, I understand but I am looking for the truth

or forget me or what has happened to forget already ..

. • :*¨`*: •. I'm not an angel. • :*¨`*: •.

I have Crapping... Crown crazy ... Heir to the Crown moment several aspects of love may not have loved

. • :*¨`*: •. I'm not an angel. • :*¨`*: •.

I live in the time it is time ... The reincarnation of personality is not me

Was looking for something I do not I own that I own ... I am trying to have what should not be trying to

. • :*¨`*: •. I'm not an angel. • :*¨`*: •.

May not own a white wings or very white heart

It may be even a little white and may not be anything but black and I do not know

. • :*¨`*: •. I'm not an angel. • :*¨`*: •.

But I am not a demon

I am a simple man ... I appreciate the value of an apology when it is the duty

I appreciate the magnificence of sacrifice if it became time

And had the heart holds inside, a lot of love and tolerance all around me

Do you like me???

Because i'm not angel .....

Sick

2009-09-22T19:52:00.001-07:00

Arh..!!! HOT HOT HOT,FLU FLU FLU,COLD COLD COLD,PAIN PAIN PAIN,FEVER FEVER FEVER...

Two candles faded

2009-09-18T05:14:00.001-07:00

7.42p.m
On the way to Hospital Klawang
Funny
I expect death of some close but i never expect that it's family close. My grandparents bind their live together when they married , they are happy and sweet together. Their love are strong and they do almost everything together. In the end, their life ended together.
Raya are coming in 1 more day and this happen.
Well raya won't be the same anymore. It looks like I'll hardly able to see those happy face of my cousin wearing Baju Melayu, eating kuih and cakes baked by myself, chit chatting and playing with other cousin. It is a big family consist of 10 sibling including my mother. 41grandchildren including myself and 8 great grandchildren. How cheerful it was when all these people gathered under one roof. Look like this year is the last year but in different enviroment.
Raya will never be the same again.

All My Models =]

2009-09-17T07:15:00.000-07:00

Editor: Gan Kah Ying..
Photographer: Mervin Chee Weng Ee

Model : Erika Yap Hui Jin
Model : Lee Mwen Wen
Model : Jesslynn Yan

my first model =)

2009-09-16T09:29:00.000-07:00

Hahaha..~~ She is my first model,got two more model haven't upload..
Well I love capture photo,but at the same time,now i need just only a CAMERA.. Without camera i can't take any photo that i wanted,too bad my two brothers need to use their camera so they wont lend me their camera =(. I really wanted to buy myself a camera,now everything are very expensive...!! Really hard to earn money to buy a thing,that i like.. =(

Ice Cream~ <33

2009-09-12T00:29:00.000-07:00

An update for the blog~
put some songs
Mervin tell me how u find the song ^^

the songs which i was addicted a few years ago coming back to haunt me^^

Garry Kasparov Talk on Mikhail Tal article

2009-09-11T21:49:00.000-07:00

This is a translation of a one-hour radio feature about Mikhail Tal, aired on the radio "Echo Moskvy" on November 30th.

Mikhail Tal, the great Soviet chess player, wasn't a "classical" chess prodigy like Jose Raul Capablanca, who, as the legend says, learned to play at tender age, just watching the adults playing. The Riga schoolboy Misha Tal learned how to place and move the little wood figures soon after the war. In 1946, he was 10. Later than some of his peers. But when he learned to play, there was no doubt that he'd become a genius. Three years later, Tal would play for the Latvia youth team. At the age of 17 he would win the Latvian championship, and at 21, the USSR championship.

To say that chess were much popular in the Soviet Union then than in Russia now is to say nothing. Chess were something of a national sport. In most schools, there were chess circles. The world championship games were analyzed in newspapers and on TV. Millions of people were able to comprehend the style and beauty of leading chess players' games.

Mikhail Tal became so quickly popular and famous because he played completely different chess than most of the other Soviet grandmasters who more or less imitated their acknowledged leader, the world champion Mikhail Botvinnik who preferred quiet, calculating, rational if not somewhat boring playing style. Tal played "wrong" chess - entertaining, spectacular, dramatic, combinational. He was like the legendary American Paul Morphy, the unofficial world champion of the mid-19th century. And he was like Russian chess emigree Alexander Alekhine, the only chess world champion who died undefeated.

Tal would sacrifice minor and major pieces, creating positions so complicated that most of his partners couldn't calculate all the possible variants and choose the right one during the game. They got nervous, made mistakes and lost. Later, after the quiet analysis, especially in recent years when powerful chess computers became available, it was often proved that many Tal's combinations, with pawn, knight, bishop, rook, queen sacrifices, were unsound and could have led him to defeat. But in the game, they brought Tal one win after another.

In 1960, before his 24th birthday, Tal met in a world championship match against Botvinnik, crushed him and became the then youngest world champion. It was his career peak. There were many more victories for him afterwards, but Tal didn't occupy the chess throne for long. Just a year later, in 1961, Tal was utterly destroyed by Botvinnik in the return match. Almost up to his death Tal remained in the chess ratings top 10. But he never managed to become first again.

His health, quite frail since his childhood, often failed him, as well as his habit of living at large. The charming, witty, highly educated, lady's man and a keen partygoer, Tal was very ill in his later years and died in 1992, just 56 years old.

Eugeny Kiselev: And now let me introduce today's guest. Here in the studio, across from me, the 13th world champion Garry Kasparov.

Garry Kasparov: Good day.

EK: Thank you for taking part in our program. The first question I'd like to ask, did you know Tal personally?

GK: Yes, indeed. I played against him.

EK: What's the score?

GK: We played some games, there were many draws, I won one. That's the classical chess score. The quick chess, blitz - the score is even, I think. But one game against Tal, I remember the most - a simul game, in March 1974. There was a competition in USSR: the Pioneer Palace teams played each other, captained by their grandmaster alumni. Our team reached the final and played against Riga. Tal gave us a simul. And this handshake... I wasn't 11 yet, and Tal himself was against me. I was so shocked that I couldn't play well and quickly lost. But I still remember those feelings. Then we played in 1978 USSR Championship, our first official game. Then we played a blitz match of 14 games, scoring 7:7. I looked through these games recently. After than, we met many times. Our relationship was good.

I worked a bit with Tal. Around 1980, he visited Baku, we played a couple of training games, and the chess contact wasn't lost until Tal's very last days. There was a blitz tournament in Moscow, one month before Tal's death. He looked horribly. But Tal was still Tal. In this blitz tournament, I lost my only game to him. I retaliated in the second round, but the fact was that until the very end, he still had this vision of games. He was the only one I knew who didn't calculate the variants, he saw them.

EK: Can you elaborate?

GK: We calculate: he does this then I do that. And Tal, through all the thick layers of variants, saw that around the 8th move, it will be so and so. Some people can see the mathematical formulae, they can imagine the whole picture instantly. An ordinary man has to calculate, to think this through, but they just see it all. It occurs in great musicians, great scientists. Tal was absolutely unique. His playing style was of course unrepeatable. I calculated the variants quickly enough, but these Tal insights were unique. He was a man in whose presence others sensed their mediocrity.

He led a very unusual life. He didn't think of anything. He lived here and now, and this enormous energy was always around him. The positive energy. Tal was one of the few completely positive people I knew, he wasn't contentious. Chess is very contentious game by its nature, and he wasn't.

EK: That is, he was an easy man.

GK: Well, not so much as easy as willing to be in normal relations with the world around him, not to enclose but to try to change something for the better. This easiness in a chess player of such level was unique.

EK: What if we'd try and compare him with other chess history figures? There was Botvinnik, for instance. He didn't lose just to Tal, but also to Smyslov, and finally resigned his chess crown to Petrosian. But still, the late 40s and 50s is the Botvinnik era. What changed in the chess after Tal? There's a theory that Tal was a part of Krushchev Thaw.

GK: I think that the world champions conformed to the spirit of their respective eras. This can be traced back to the first world champions, and this quite nicely fits Botvinnik's bio in particular. Botvinnik's domination was actually in the 30s. He was already the leading Soviet chess player. All those congratulations from the Soviet government, Botvinnik's letter to Stalin, the special privileges for the first Soviet chess player who competes at the world championship level, it's 1936-1937.

When Botvinnik met Tal, there was a 25-year era behind him. Botvinnik's style, it's very important, conformed to the spirit of that era, very rational, cold, scientific, he tried to divide chess into individual squares and analyze all them one by one. That was a revolutionary breakthrough in chess. This dogmatism worked. Smyslov was different, but also played in that classical style.

EK: How was Smyslov different from Botvinnik?

GK: Smyslov was a practitioner, while Botvinnik was a researcher. Vasily Vasilievich played more intuitive chess. Botvinnik wanted to study all the nuances, and Smyslov's playing was like a stream of chess consciousness. Though in his best years his principle was quite simple: I make 40 good moves, and if my partner also makes 40 good moves, then there's a draw.

So the quality of the moves was incredibly high, but in the eyes of general chess society, those were two different, but ultimately similar chess philosophies. Tal's difference was complete. From the very beginning, he played chess that should have been condemned by those classical canons. But the problem wasn't just that he played, and he won. He created such situations on chessboard... Today, with computers, it becomes clear what happened there.

But then, the people were just shocked, they weren't used to such playing, and at 21 Tal becomes a USSR champion, and in the 1958 - a two-time USSR champion. It's impossible to comprehend that now, the USSR Championship was by far the world's strongest tournament in those times.

EK: Almost a world championship.

GK: Botvinnik didn't play, but it still was a super-elite tournament, stronger than any other in the world. It was incredible to win a USSR championship twice in a row.

EK: Well, yes. There weren't many strong players in the world. Reshevsky, the young Fischer...

GK: But still, Reshevsky already wasn't a competitor, and Fischer wasn't yet. The very young Larsen appears. But still, the USSR Championship was first-class. In 1959, he didn't play too good and shared 2nd-3rd with Spassky, Petrosian won. The championship was held in Tbilisi. Tal with his playing very quickly reached the base of chess Olympus. Many thought that the USSR Championship had a number of weaker players, but in the Candidates' Tournament, where it's needed to play Smyslov four times, Tal wouldn't achieve much.

But he won that Candidates' Tournament in Yugoslavia. A splendid victory, in style to which commentators weren't used. He'd win a game against Smyslov, sacrificing material, and Smyslov couldn't find defence. It's still a question whether there was any defence. And the next game, he would win it while a piece behind. He played completely different chess. It was a great sensation. But many still thought that it wouldn't work against Botvinnik. But it worked! Botvinnik was crushed.

But in the return match, Botvinnik found Tal's weaknesses, and Tal, due to his youth and openness, failed to prepare well. He played worse. But the very fact of the win against Botvinnik was impressive. It was really a thaw. Politically, it coincided very well. Tal's open style conformed well to the current political era. If you allow me to continue this analogy, Tal's victory couldn't last long because the thaw was coming to an end.

EK: Still, what happened in that year? What happened with Tal?

GK: I think that he wasn't prepare for the thick and thin, to begin really working, to continue the self-perfection. His playing style required an enormous strain, also he had to understand the threats of the return match against Botvinnik. Botvinnik prepared, despite being 50 years old he had that ability to dissect and study the causes of his defeat and find the playing concept which would be inconvenient for Tal. It's revealing that Tal defeated Botvinnik five times in the return match.

EK: And six times in the first one.

GK: But he also lost ten games. Tal still won many enough games, but the novelty that struck Botvinnik was gone. And, of course, Tal should have prepared differently for the return match. But if he prepared, he wouldn't be Tal. He lived differently, it was simpler to him than to us. From my conversations with Tal, I think he didn't consider the things obvious to us to be of any importance. Tal was much lighter on his feet, much more prone to anxiety than other chess players.

EK: Do you want to say that results didn't mean as much to him as to other chess players?

GK: Well, the result meant much to him, but bad results weren't such drama for him as for other players. Tal was an artist, he deemed any game worthy if it was interesting. Nevertheless, he was an immensely strong player, until the very end he was dangerous for any partner.

In 1988, there was a blitz world championship in Canada, all the leading players took part. And Tal became the blitz world champion.

EK: Did you play?

GK: I did. I lost in quarter-finals. Karpov lost even earlier. It was play-off. In the final, Tal defeated Vaganian. It was a very difficult tournament, and yet he won it. He was 51, his health was already declining. But he still remained Tal. He didn't even seek the truth in chess, he sought beauty. It was a concept completely different from most of ours.

EK: Why then couldn't he compete for a world championship again? As you just said, until his last days he remained one of the world's strongest players. If I remember correctly, he was always in Elo rating Top-10 list.

GK: Yes, we can say that Tal was in Top-10 until he was 50. Moreover, in 1973, there was a string of tournament wins that sadly ended in the Leningrad Interzonal. He was in the top three then, perhaps even second. Karpov probably didn't overtake him yet. And he rose again in 1978-1979. Another sequence of wins and, I think, world's second rating once again. Karpov was first then.

He probably lacked that solidity. Even after his superb win in 1979 Interzonal, he lost a quarter-final match against Polugaevsky. He was stronger than Polugaevsky, but he had to prepare, he needed other qualities, sporting, researching ones. Tal always lacked them, and this always hindered his efforts.

After 1961, he failed to find an adequate solution to his chess problems. Still, in 1965 he played a final match against Spassky.

EK: I just wanted to ask, was Spassky stronger?

GK: He was more versatile. Undoubtedly. By the way, Tal never played too good against Spassky. There were some "inconvenient" partners: Spassky, Korchnoi. And in 1965, it became obvious that it's too hard for Tal to make that final effort. The next generation arrived, they knew Tal's lessons.

EK: But wait, weren't Spassky and Tal about the same age?

GK: Spassky was a year younger, but in 1965, he already played other chess. The era of dogmatic Botvinnik ended. Tal made efforts, but he couldn't concentrate on the results.

EK: We compared Tal with other players. We can't help but remember Karpov. Did their ways ever cross?

GK: Tal worked with Karpov, very seriously worked. It seems to have began before the match against Fischer, but Tal played an important role when Karpov played Korchnoi.

EK: Did you mean the cancelled match against Fischer?

GK: Yes. In Bagio, and, I think, they were still in touch in Merano, when Karpov played Korchnoi again, but the peak of their collaboration was in 1978. This peak also indicated Tal's rise, because such collaboration helps both sides. It was very important for Karpov to have Tal's support, but Tal also learned a lot about the new trends in chess. So his rise in 1978-1979 was also a result of this work.

EK: They seem so different.

GK: Well, that's why their work helped them both. They are indeed different. But Tal played more pragmatically then. In the late 70s, he became a more technical player. He still could start a combinational storm, but it wasn't all-important to him anymore. He did understand that it was necessary to do some boring things at the chessboard and learned to do them quite well. He'd always find some peculiarities in the positions that his equally famous colleagues couldn't.

EK: Did Tal play Fischer?

GK: Of course, he did. And he was like a curse for Fischer, because he beat him viciously. In 1959, in that Candidates' Tournament, Tal finished ahead of Keres despite losing to him 3:1, because he thoroughly defeated all the foreign players. And he crushed Fischer 4:0. Fischer first won against Tal in 1961 Bled tournament. But still, Tal was always a trouble to Fischer, especially in his youth.

EK: Why?

GK: I think that Fischer also tried to be a "right" chess player, and Tal was "wrong". He played in the way that irritated Fischer. He was very emotional. And Tal's approach to chess unnerved Fischer, so he couldn't play well. It was pretty one-sided until a certain moment.

EK: You mentioned two more names. Talking of Tal, we're remembering the entire history of Soviet chess. Two men who very nearly missed the chess throne, Paul Keres and Viktor Korchnoi. Do you agree?

GK: Of course. Keres was called "forever second", he never could cross that barrier to become a candidate, even though he was a real competitor as early as the late 30s, and I think only because of the WWII he didn't get to play Alekhine. Because the young Keres' results were good enough to challenge Alekhine. It was a competition of sorts between Keres and Botvinnik.

Botvinnik succeeded. He got the right position in this historical dispute. Botvinnik represented the Soviet Union, Keres couldn't find a place for himself because he lived in Estonia during the war, on German territory, he played in German tournaments, he played Alekhine there. And that was a serious problem that could have ended tragically for Keres, because he didn't emigrate, there are many versions why this didn't happen. The first years of living in the Soviet Union were a severe ordeal to him, and the broken man had no strength to challenge Botvinnik.

And then he just couldn't. Someone was always a step ahead: first Smyslov, then Tal, then Petrosian. Keres always came second in those tournaments. Korchnoi's situation was different, he played a world championship match, but later, when the performance of other players of his age declined. Korchnoi played in USSR Championships since the 50s, he won silver medal in 1954. He couldn't surpass Tal, Petrosian, Spassky. And when their results declined, Korchnoi was able to progress rapidly, especially after his escape, emigration from the USSR. Korchnoi played very well in 1977.

He had several more years, despite his age. He approached 50, played extremely well, his playing was fresh. Well, he wasn't strong enough to beat Karpov. But Korchnoi's contribution to chess is enormous. Viktor Lvovich is near 80 now but still plays inventively, with interest. It was interesting to watch how a 75 years old veteran defeats those who could be his great-grandchildren.

EK: They say that Korchnoi had a particular style, he was very defensive. Was he?

GK: His playing was non-standard, as Tal's was, it was unbalancing. But while Tal attacked, Korchnoi accepted those attacks. That's why it was so hard for Tal to play against him, Korchnoi didn't react to his attacks. Korchnoi drew the fire. Tal created a storm, and Korchnoi waited patiently until it calms. But don't forget that it's just the distinctive features of their styles. Don't think that their other aspects of playing were worse. Korchnoi's technique grew with age, his endgame technique in the 80s was so strong that even Karpov had serious troubles against him.

EK: Could you tell me what you think about the cause of the phenomena called the great Soviet chess?

GK: It's hard to tell, but don't forget that chess was rapidly developing in Russia even before 1917. There was a Russian chess school. Chigorin was its most prominent player, but there were good players before him, and with him, it had just gone to a new level. So in the early 20th century there were some brilliant chess players from the Russian Empire, not just Alekhine: for instance, Rubinstein, Nimzowitsch, it's all Russian Empire. Baltic states, Poland, but still it was Russia then. There was Germany, but Russia was among the most prominent chess nations.

And the regular chess tournaments, two greatest pre-WWI tournaments were in Saint-Petersburg in 1909 and 1914. They contributed a lot to the development of chess. And then this effort was exploited by the Soviet government. They attracted very many young talented chess players. Chess became an integral part of a new, incipient culture. And again, the international tournaments. Moscow 1925. The famous movie "Chess Fever". In addition to many internal tournaments, there were international ones. And all that, the attention to chess, the state support, led to the development of a chess school. And it developed. Talent is everywhere, you just have to create the conditions to search for it.

Sadly, in Russia, something completely opposite happens. Then intelligence seemed very important, and everything possible was done to find and develop this intelligence, but the current disdain for intelligence also has an impact on chess. I think that the results of Russian national chess teams, both men and women, are disastrous...

EK: I remember my school childhood. In my class, it was considered that if you're getting good marks, you should also play good chess.

GK: It was a part of some culture. Chess was one of Soviet Union's calling cards. Hockey, chess, figure skating - we knew that we're better than everyone else there. But now, sadly, it's all lost mainly because the regard for intelligence declined sharply, especially from the government.

EK: There were the Pioneer Palaces, various tournaments.

GK: Yes, there was a system.

EK: The "White Rook".

GK: Yes, there was the "White Rook", the Pioneer Palace tournaments for the prizes from Komsomolskaya Pravda newspaper - another system. They allowed to pass the experience from generation to generation. There were chess schools, there was Botvinnik's chess school, later to become Botvinnik and Kasparov's chess school. There was always a possibility to get that past experience. The generations change took many different forms. Speaking of Tal, I became a world champion on Tal's birthday, November 9th.

EK: On Tal's birthday?

GK: Yes. I remember than on November 8th, before the last game with Karpov, I got calls from my teacher Botvinnik and from Tal, with whom I was on friendly terms. Botvinnik gave me a speech. He was like, "You lead 12:11. No matter what happens, you have proved that this match should have been played". Very stern he was. Tal didn't say anything like that. He just reminded me, "Don't forget, young man, that tomorrow is my birthday". The bond of generations was always there. The chess teams constantly changed, in 1980 I played my first Chess Olympiad, and Tal also was in the team.

The generations changed. And it was obvious that it's all possible because there was fresh blood. It was. But now, even despite there are many talented chess players around, there's no such system that made parents search for a chess talent in their children.

EK: But we now play good tennis. That's also en example.

GK: They built a lot of tennis courts, that's actually good.

EK: Nothing bad. But there was some kind of a monarch's will. "Make it so".

GK: And the results came quite quickly. This also proves the conception that talents are everywhere. You just have to create conditions for them.

EK: We need a chess-loving president.

GK: You don't have to spend so much on chess as you have on tennis or soccer.

EK: That's true, no need to spend a lot.

GK: In 1989-1990, when Shamil Tarpischev just began his activities that later engulfed the whole country, there was already a strong chess base. Nothing needed to be reinvented. The remnants of those chess centers still exist. But the most interesting thing is that the chess activity has moved into the ex-Soviet republics. Who won the Olympics? Georgia and Ukraine woman teams tied for first.

EK: Georgia had a lot of strong woman chess players.

GK: Of course. In some cases, for instance in 1980, Georgians comprised the whole Soviet woman chess team. Nevertheless, Maya Chiburdanidze is 47, in 1976 we won USSR championships in Tbilisi, she won girls' championship, I won boys', she was 15, I was still 12. January 1976. She plays on the first board, she gets the best result. It was joked that of all her partners, only one was born before she became a world champion. That's the reserve they still have, even though there are many young Georgian players, and the Ukrainian team is also quite young. But they have different determination to win.

Who won the men's Olympics? Armenia. Twice in a row. Before that, Ukraine won in 2004. Different determination. They need to win. And I think there's no need to remind where did the whole Israel team, who claimed second place, come from.

EK: I can imagine.

GK: Even though there are many young players there. Determination for a result. There was an understanding that in USSR any place except the first is a failure. There's nothing like that now. I don't know how to explain that. But still, the Soviet chess history is something we can be proud of. It's worth noting that our relationship with Karpov could be very tense, but when we played for our country, we understood that we're pursuing a common goal and worked together quite well.

EK: Speaking of politics. Was Tal a dissident or not, was he interested in politics at all?

GK: He was a freedom lover. And, obviously, couldn't accept all that official frippery. He was indifferent to all that. He wasn't interested in the confrontation. He wasn't a contentous type. He could never accept Korchnoi's approach. But because of his personality, his intellectual determination Tal obviously didn't accept what was going on. But he just lived his own life, abstracted away from all that, and still he had some problems, some fallout with Karpov, and that had an impact on his ability to play in tournaments.

EK: Even like that?

GK: Very often.

EK: But why he fell out with Karpov?

GK: I can't tell exactly why he fell out with Karpov. They say that one of the reasons was that Tal highly valued my chances to become a world champion. Karpov considered that attitude defeatist. I can't say for sure. I think that Tal was a man who could say something, but never tried to conform to the moment. He could fall into troubles. Though then came perestroika, it became easier to go abroad and play in tournaments. But Tal in Soviet time constantly encoundered some troubles, both in the 60s and 70s, if he wasn't on top of the chess hierarchy, he could have been easily left out of the Olympic team.

He had those troubles when he wasn't on his peak.

EK: Non-standard, inconvenient. Health problems...

GK: Yes, they always could find them. And he was absolutely incontrollable. One couldn't expect from him some Korchnoi-style escapades. Tal would make statements, go abroad... He was, to put it that way, socially alien to the system.

EK: Well, there were very few chess players who emigrated to the West.

GK: Well, there were some, but we have to make distinction between emigration and defection, like Korchnoi's.

EK: Well, I'm not saying... As far as I remember, only Korchnoi openly stated about his defection.

GK: And what about Lyova Alburt and, for that matter, Gata Kamsky in 1989?

EK: Different times.

GK: Of course. From that era, it's, of course, Alburt and Korchnoi. They were players of different level, but Lev Alburt nevertheless was also a grandmaster, played in the USSR Championship finals. And Tal, I think, was free everywhere. He didn't care where he was.

EK: But the people emigrated.

GK: Yes, a lot of people. Not the elite players, but they did emigrate. And speaking of defectors, we may remember Igor Ivanov. He was an international master from Uzbekistan.

EK: I can't remember him.

GK: His greatest achievement - he defeated Karpov at the USSR Spartakiad of Nations in 1979.

EK: I remember Leonid Stein, a strong player.

GK: Lyonia Stein died. He didn't go anywhere. His career was also very distinguished and unique. He was unlucky because there were quotas on Soviet players. Tournaments comprised only of Soviet players were unacceptable. Stein twice fell victim of those quotas, because there were Keres, Tal, Spassky ahead of him. He always narrowly missed his chances. And his three USSR Championship titles is a unique result.

Still, to win a USSR Championship in these times was quite an achievement. Those who won it more than once were undoubtedly extra-class players. He died very early, he was 38 years old. In 1973, right before the Interzonal.

EK: What did Tal think of your competition with Karpov. You said that he just reminded you of his birthday...

GK: It was before the last game.

EK: And in the previous years and months? Especially during the first, most dramatic match.

GK: Tal openly sympathized me. The most momentous event happened before the play-off of the 27th game, which I lost, and the score became 5:0. Tal visited us in the "Russia" hotel, we analyzed the game a bit, it was clear that my position wasn't good, and I went to finish the game without much enthusiasm. Though when I analyzed the game recently for the book about this match against Karpov, I learned that I had good chances to save the game. Many things become clearer with computers. Tal said that this position is unlikely to be saved.

And after this game, when the score became 5:0, I again met him, and he said, "Young man, you stand no chance now. Now all you can do is to shut the door with a bang". Tal sympathized me and gave some playing tips.

EK: And what did he say when the score was 5:3?

GK: We weren't in touch at that point, Tal wasn't in Moscow. For the older generation of chess players, what happened in this match wasn't unlike a miracle. An omen. They understood that a new era had begun, because 5:0 is a diagnosis. And if Karpov can't win after 5:0, then something had happened. Both Botvinnik and Tal felt that very sharply.

The fresh style that I brought into chess and that was finally formed in the match against Karpov seemed to them, the patriarchs of our chess, an important breakthrough. Chess can't be in a balanced state for long. Something always should be moved. These matches, the playing level I managed to show, drew positive reactions from Botvinnik and Tal, this style was more favourable for Tal.

EK: I never had an opportunity to ask you this question before, though other people most likely did. If the match wasn't stopped, could you have equalized?

GK: It's too hard to analyze hypothetically.

EK: And how about your feelings?

GK: If to analyze it now, we have to take in account that Karpov was in a very depressed mood: how's that, he can't win just one more game and keeps losing. And I started to play stronger. That was the thing that unnerved and depressed Karpov the most. It was obvious that I progressed in the match's course. And my playing in the end was very different from what whas in the beginning. That was pressing.

Most probably, I could've won a fourth game. And then... that's not a question of whether I win or not anymore. I could have lost. One mistake is enough. It's actually the law of averages - how long can you hang down the rope. If the match continued after 5:4, anything was possible. It's very easy to make one mistake.

EK: It's still a game, isn't it?

GK: Of course. I think, the match would have ended soon enough, maybe 7 or 8 games or so, and I don't know if I'd have the strength to avoid that fatal mistake, or Karpov would have the strength to wait for it. I don't know. It was the first time Karpov faced the real threat of losing a match. It still wasn't 50:50, I believe in the law of averages, and it was, of course, on Karpov's side. But the risk of defeat had become apparent because Karpov could lose every week.

But still, Karpov is Karpov. The quality of last games suggested a high probability of me making... just one mistake, little more was needed. But there also was a chance to win. And so the match cancellation psychologically helped Karpov. But it also gave me a great psychological drive for the future.

EK: And Mikhail Tal probably helped you. I don't know if he was religious, but he prayed for you, for your victory.

GK: I think Tal never prayed for anybody. Tal just wanted some changes. He couldn't do anything else. He wanted the stiff, very much Karpov-oriented system to change. And he didn't even attempt to hide his sympathies and his expectations.

2009-09-09T08:48:00.001-07:00

DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE

Hamtaro

2009-09-05T06:39:00.001-07:00

Walao eh
My hamter so cute man!
Wthell so random =.=

2009-09-04T06:13:00.000-07:00

The Day To Day My Life Is getting More Short..
I feel my gastric now is getting more worst,i dun care about just let it be..
But i want to done all my thing before i leave this world~

(Mervin)

2009-09-01T05:01:00.000-07:00

tick tocks tick tocks
times is killing me slowly!!!

2009-08-30T23:36:00.000-07:00

Lolx.. This is my first time let dog bitten like that,I let jackson dog bitten like that one O.o.. Hahahaha..~~ The reason why i will let his dog bite,because i go kacau it and the dog dislike ppl touch it neck.. Then i'm the first person who be example,then i go touch it,first time it no bite me then the second time GG..

Merdeka

2009-08-30T09:25:00.001-07:00

Haha...
Happy birthday to Malaysia!
Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka! That's what every Malaysians heard and reply with full of patriotic spirit.
Haha..the picture of kamarul 'zhi pai' wahaha

Mermory.~~

2009-08-27T09:11:00.000-07:00

Yes i'm waiting for someone...Someone that i never meet for 9years and we never contact each another,I don't how was she now,but i hope she will be fine and happy always...!!

Copy right:Mervin Chee ^^V

MERVIN CHEE WENG EE

2009-08-25T05:59:00.001-07:00

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you.
You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night.
Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.
Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

Kamarul Arifin = =

2009-08-23T20:06:00.001-07:00

do you find it true or false?

You Are Smart and Curious

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.

You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.

People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.

You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun.

Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Ramadhan Again~

2009-08-21T15:24:00.000-07:00

Yay!! Ramadhan finally here ^^
haha...i've been waiting for this month of the year since last Aidilfitri
yeah
i noe i'm lame but who cares??

HAHA!!

Happy Fasting and selamat Berpuasa for all the muslims out there ^^
and also for my sister who jz secretly started blogging (she still didnt know i knew )

yay!! finally i can save my money

i cant save money during other months as i tend to buy foods = =

SPM seminar in seremban on 27-29th i cant wait =)

2009-08-18T06:31:00.000-07:00

Hey..
I'm The New Owner of this blog =]
Hehehe..~~
Want to learn how to write blog like kamarul xD
This was the first time i share blog with Friend..~.~

<>M3rv1n<>

2009-08-18T06:21:00.000-07:00

introduction the new other owner for the blogs
MERVIN CHEE WENG EE!!
hahaha
okay okay...be nice to him ok?
out~

Kitty Kitty Kitty~~

2009-08-13T08:47:00.000-07:00

The Cusp of Oscillation – Cancer/Leo Cusp July 19-25

2009-07-27T08:54:00.000-07:00

You are a complex person who is not easily read. You are resistant to emotional manipulation. You have a contrasting personality. You are efficient and are able to complete tasks. You love to be on the cutting edge of innovative projects and activities; you’d rather be in the thick of the battle rather then sit on the sidelines. You crave excitement and need to meet challenges dauntlessly. You are calm under fire. You have extreme urges and have an unconscious drive for near-death experiences. You need security and dependability but can bore easily and hanker for excitement and change. You have a wide palette of emotional and sexual expression and express your desires over a wide variety of partner types. You can be faithful to your mate as long as they hold your attention and can be accepting, open and understanding. Strengths: Morally Courageous – Exciting – Dauntless Weaknesses: Manic Depressive – Addictive – Emotionally Blocked

2009-07-26T08:02:00.000-07:00

Goodbye Hair
wahahahahha

Tagged by Jolyn

2009-07-26T02:30:00.000-07:00

was going through blogs and saw this tag =.=
wasn't expected i will be tag by her though
well here's go nothing

1. What have you been doing recently?

study, eat, sleep, jog and computer

2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?

yes,when i really hate to be disturb

3. What happened at 10am today?

studying with chia yung

4. When did you last cry?

forgot

5. Believe in Fate/Destiny?

sure why not?

6. What do you want in life now?
success

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
depends but i rather use umbrella

8. What’s your favourite thing to do on bed ?
reading, dreaming, sms-ing
9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
long trousers (what i always wear)

10. What are the nicest things in your inbox?

outrageous and breathetaking views of enviroments

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
no...hope it wont happen in the future

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
nope

13. What was the last movie you caught?

Harry Potter and the half blood prince

14. What are you proud of?

Win i hate to lose..but didnt mind losing with some benefits,compensation or outcome

15 . What does the oldest text msg in your inbox says and who is it from?
something bout ice-cream from yee wen

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?

What about now byu Chris Daughtry

17. Do you have any nicknames?

yes alot.. All of them are given but most of them i get it from camps
1.bugs bunny - by my friends when i was in primary 5 due to my buck teeth
2.Ryoga - given by my fren
3.Winter/summer/autumn/spring - given by our fasilitators in camp coz i was the leader of the seasons group
4.Arul - a name call by my family
5. mamarul/mama/mam - given by chia sing if not mistaken
6.

18. What does the newest text msg says and who is it from?
Siew Han scolding me for not sitting with her in tuition. lol

19. What time did you go to sleep last night?
1am

20. Are you currently happy?
yeah....without any reason ^^ just plain happy

21. Who gives you the best advice?
daddy..he's my hero LOL!!

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
No

23. Who do you talked to on phone last night?
Chia yung

24. Is something bugging you right now?
yes,Educations and exam

25. Who is the last person to make you laugh?
Again Chia yung last night

26. Do you like yourself?

Yes and no

27. You want $5 or $10?

I want both!! ROTFL

28. Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
OHHH yes...i do many stupid things...sometimes i try hard to do it

29. Who is your best best best friend?
Steven Hee Chia Yung (can't believe it eh?)

30. What will you do if you like that boy?

Just talk to him la ^^

31. Who are your favourite stars?

that one...eh eh no...that one...uuu that one one look pretty

32. You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
I wouldn’t say hate. 99% of the time, it’s love <3

33. Do you had even stead before?
Not really sure...but i really want to in the future

34. What type of boy do you like?
The one who doesnt pissed me off

35. Now are you single/attached?
single

Pass this tag to 10 people !

1.Mervin

2. Chan Chee Nie

3. Pang

4. Josh

5. Coffee Lim

6. Vicky

7. Yee Wen

8. Chia sing

9. Juliana

10. Amanda

1. Would you date number 5?
Would consider =) but she's more like a sister to me

2. Number 2 just got in a car crash. How do you react?
Oh...she's dead?

3. You see number 9 with your boy/girlfriend. What do you do?
Hi ^^ meet my sister

4. You come home and your room has been ransacked by number 4.
What do you think you're doing!!??

5. Number 1 is acting weird.
means that's him

6. Numbers 3 and 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.
I dont know what would happen

7. Number 7 just got tickets for him/her and ask you to go to a concert.
THANKS!! Let's go

8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.
chocolate bar? weee~~

9. Number 4 has to move to the other side of the world.
Oh...he decided to join number 2?

10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.
Shoot them!! shoot them!!

11. Number 5 asks you out to dinner.
Let's go

12. Number 9 and you are sitting on a bus….
Then?

13. Number 6 calls you in the middle of the night because he/she can’t sleep.

hmm....i guess i'll company her..maybe she had too much coffee

14. Your walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.

Ei...u got nothing to do ar?

15. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask him/her why and it seems their boy/girlfriend has dumped them.
OMG!! mervin!!?? crying!!?? that cant be happening

16. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal. As you sit in the other room, the kitchen is suddenly on flame.
Calll the ambulanceS!! u! go and run around in circle like a maniac!!

17. Number 4 comes to your door one day holding a koala.

WTF are u planning to do with it! it is endangered u knoW!!

18. Number 4 just got you an X-Box.
Who are you and what did u do to my friend?

19. Number 9 challenges you to a children’s card game!
Just play with her then

20. Number 1 thinks he/she’s overweight.
YES!! you are!! XOXOXO

21. Number 7 looks lonely!

i shall go talk her

22. Number 2 asks you rudely to go leave her/him alone.
then i will left her alone duh =.=

23. Numbers 5 and 3 decide to throw a surprise party for you.
I WILL be surprised.

24. Number 6 decide to dye their hair black. What do you say to that?
Whyllahhh u waste ur money when ur hair is black?? unless....you...HEHEHE...have WHITE HAIR!!

25. You catch number 9 by him/herself, crying.
Ask her what happen

26. Numbers 1 , 3 , 5, and 6 all tackle you at once!
Evade,run,kick and GGGGOOOOOAAAAALLLLLL!!!!

2009-07-25T03:57:00.000-07:00

an apple a day keeps the doctor away
a maggie a day helps you go away

can u believe that we are able to read japanese ppl's attitude or behaviour just by their name? well..we can =D
here's some example

suka memaki ----- Kusuke Cacimake

kuat makan ----- Nanase Kasibanya

kuat tidur ----- Wasuka Tidomati

suka merempit ----- Takisah Caremati

trip handsome ----- Wamase Hensam

suka kasi orang mengira ------ Kaseko Kira

很累啊啊！！！！
突然很想去海边游泳！！ = =
怕怕大考

Stop bugging me!

2009-07-22T03:56:00.001-07:00

As the title goes

Happy birthday to Crystal Lim / Coffee

2009-07-18T21:41:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday to u~
wahaha... lol
wahaha...ei ei ei u 19 d eh.
so old yerr..
haha

dun wory
u r juz one year closer to ur death only ma
XD
jkjk

lai lai
later go celebrate ^^

2009-07-11T03:22:00.000-07:00

DEAD*

'nuff said

jog~

2009-07-03T09:34:00.000-07:00

gone jogging with zhen xing,jun ling and jie ming

jun ling really funny when we ask which to decide

zhen xing :" hey, which one should i choose?"

jun ling :" dunno,go throw dice and decide."

zhen xing : "dun have dice"

jun ling : " then throw rubix lo"

we all burst to laughter by that time

= =
zhen xing and

Gloomy sunday

2009-06-30T03:40:00.001-07:00

Sunday is gloomy,
My hours are slumberless
Dearest the shadows
I live with are numberless
Little white flowers
Will never awaken you
Not where the black coaches
Sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thoughts
Of ever returning you
Wouldnt they be angry
If I thought of joining you?

Gloomy sunday

Gloomy is sunday,
With shadows I spend it all
My heart and i
Have decided to end it all
Soon therell be candles
And prayers that are said I know
But let them not weep
Let them know that Im glad to go
Death is no dream
For in death Im caressin you
With the last breath of my soul
Ill be blessin you

Gloomy sunday

Dreaming, I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you asleep
In the deep of my heart here
Darling I hope
That my dream never haunted you
My heart is tellin you
How much I wanted you
Gloomy sunday

Anniversary to Misha

2009-06-28T03:37:00.000-07:00

I ADORE YOU!!
well...almost everyone does
was checking mail and playing chess
until i come accross a game
which somehow remind me of misha
i almost forgotten that today is the
anniversary for misha
i learnt how to sacrifice
i learnt how to get better
i learnt how to anticipate cleverly
and i changed
Teng kiu

Tal in memories~
26june1992

Kamarul Arifin

Happy birthday to mervin

2009-06-13T20:52:00.000-07:00

hahaha^^
happy birthday to mervin
one year older d leh
this year quite many entertainment bout 17 years old leh
yyyeerrr...but why la ur birthday end up in sunday?
last day of the long long long holiday somemore..
nvm lahhh
anyways

cheer up and be happy always
like what vicky gave u ROFL
wish u good luck in ur competition !!
yosh!

THANK?

2009-06-06T06:43:00.000-07:00

yay!! finally i'm home
after 8 days of camp + programme + fun i'm home!!
jz reach home from KL
and now lemon staying in my house
haha... vicky now i noe how u felt b4
he touch almst everything that are possible to touch
wahaha....omg
vicky really thanks ya!!
it've been a very fun nite together with u and lemon
nights of laughters and staying up until 4a.m = =
one more hour late than last stay